tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30364779029535050152024-02-20T04:56:54.495-08:00This Thought CountsToday is a very good day to have a good day.Cynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.comBlogger267125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-36684742089968722792017-09-25T05:00:00.000-07:002017-09-25T05:00:04.313-07:00End of one Journey, beginning of a new one<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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When I started this blog in August 2008, I had no idea where my journey would take me. I only knew it had started the winter before with the watching of <i><b>What the Bleep Do We Know?</b></i> And reading <b><i>The Secret</i> </b>2 months later. I could see how I attracted what I didn’t want. When the Boundless Living Challenge (went defunct in 2013) came up – 45 days to a goal – I jumped in. If you’ve read my first 2-3 months of blog posts, you’ll see how much that changed me.<br />
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I mean, I went from mostly negative with a small percentage of blah to being positive at least 50% of the time. That’s tremendous! While I haven’t blogged as much as I did then, I have kept up my journey. I’ve had amazing moments. I’ve had disheartened moments. And I’ve let you travel it along with me because I thought people needed to see that they were okay, that having ups and downs was normal.<br />
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The journey that started Winter 2008 ended in Summer 2013. In late Summer/early Fall 2013, I started a new journey – a higher journey expanding on the basic law of attraction into something far greature, listening to the words of Neville Goddard and Florence Scovel Shinn. Of taking what served me and leaving the rest. Of trying my own things. Of growing. Of expanding. Of taking part in things I had never dreamed were possible.<br />
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The 45-day meditation challenge I created for myself in spring 2016. (It shocks me this was only just over a year ago. So much has happened in that time that it feels like it should be 2 or 3 years ago.) Not only did I learn how wonderful meditation was for me, it helped me to figure out things. Like what the constant buzz in my ear was (my guides trying to contact me and not able to get through.) I felt, for the first time in my life what love actually was during that challenge. A couple weeks later, I met my first angel.<br />
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In the last year, the sheer amount of changes I’ve gone through, the growth I’ve attained, the guides and angels I’ve met, and the places I’ve been taken by an amazing Wolf guardian are amazing. I’ve reached new levels of enlightenment, gone through psychic attack, and learned to trust in me and my guides better.<br />
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To put it bluntly, I’m not the same person I was 4 years ago when I started studying Neville Goddard’s works, let alone 9 years ago when I started this blog.<br />
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It’s time for a change. I’ll leave this blog up and link to it. But this journey is complete and a new one has arrived. I’ll be creating a new website soon to document this amazing expanded path I’m on.<br />
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I hope you’ll join me there. Amazing things ahead… So many opportunities. So much joy. I’m in awe. And so excited ;)<br />
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(I’ll post a link here as a post when it goes live.)<br />
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Cynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-73256449552662908722017-09-22T13:51:00.000-07:002017-09-22T13:51:32.725-07:00I was visited by a wolf last night<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Ever since my experience with spiders 4 years ago, I've become increasingly aware of all the signs the universe sends us -it's unique form of communication. There are always several meanings that go along with any creature who crosses your path and the one that is the right is the one that instinctively grabs you.<br />
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A month or so ago, I had to expand the language I had associated with spiders when they appeared when I was in a very positive frame of mind.<br />
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The fact is, when the universe sees that you are listening, it will expand its vocabulary. Not that it doesn't sometimes talk to you. It does. But for one such as me, unless I'm in a focused conversation where I'm speaking with a universal presence, I tend to think those voices in my head are me having a joke.<br />
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When I first started looking into the meanings behind the insects, animals, and signs that crossed my path, they were instant. Now that I'm paying attention, finding the meanings behind them have taken a new turn. All along it has been teaching me to trust intuition and now through intuition I'm beginning to understand a more in depth language of the universe.<br />
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Last night I was visited by a wolf. I was lying in bed waiting for my essential oil distiller to run out of water so I could clean it out and had turned off most of the lights. Suddenly out of the corner of my eye I saw a shape. That happens often, actually. Oft times when I try to focus on what occurred on the edge of my vision, it will disappear by the time I look. So imagine my surprise and awe when I saw him as a shadow on my ceiling. He was lying on his stomach, his head slightly raised, his ears perked, his haunches slightly raised as though he was ready to move when I was. Kind, watchful... a guide waiting for me to follow.<br />
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I grabbed my tablet and tried to do an instant lookup on wolves metaphysical meanings and nothing rang true... until this morning.<br />
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After turning off my lights and curling up, he came to me and asked if I was ready. Naturally, I was nervously excited and I said yes. "Run with me," he said and we took off. The feeling of the wind as I ran at a super speed, keeping up with him, was amazing. as though we traveled thousands of miles every second. We stopped and he told me to close my eyes. I did so. What happened next I am not ready to share yet. It was so intrinsically personal and mind opening. When I have learned more about where he took me and if he says I may share, I will.<br />
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This morning, I found a reference that said wolves were mentioned as guardians to the universe in old tales. My wolf guide stood as a guide and guardian. It was only through his taking me there that I was allowed to crossover into another realm. Where he took me was amazing and life changing. And where I've been headed for some time. He gave me my first true look, my first glimpse, into another dimension/realm. And of all the openness it contains.<br />
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I look forward to where he guides me next.<br />
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Currently my message is this: Keep growing, keep expanding, and keep dreaming your dreams. Leave the how up to the universe. It can deliver in amazingly mind-expanding ways.<br />
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NamasteCynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-3808653679940265142017-09-15T16:35:00.001-07:002017-09-15T16:35:21.756-07:00Stop letting labels define who you are. There's a better idea<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Let’s discuss labels. If you know me,
I’m a big fan of dumping labels wholeheartedly, but they are not altogether
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in your life where you feel free or need to proclaim who/what you are, labels
are needed for that.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“I’m gay!”<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“I’m single again!”<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">However, that’s the only thing
labels are good for – grabbing hold of who we are and accepting it, stating it,
and basically taking ownership of who we are as a person.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">The problem is that once you stick a
label on yourself, you’re kind of stuck with it… not just from other people
seeing you with that label, but in how you see yourself.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Trying to label ourselves is a bit
like putting a label on water. It dissolves slowly until what's leftover is a
sad shade of what it once was. The worst part is we're still clinging to that
label, so we are not what we could be, because we are claiming to be what we <b><i>were</i></b>.
Since our eyes are on the past we CANNOT move forward.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Stop self-identifying with your
label so much. Yes, it might be a part of who you are. But it isn't you. We all
get caught up in it, in the feeling of fitting in, or of standing out. Of
having something that makes sense be our buoy.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">All of us do it. And we all need to
learn to let those labels go.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">So, you're straight today. In 2, 5,
10 years you could open up and realize you are something more – Bisexual? Gay?
Asexual?. If you're clinging to the straight label, you’ll harm yourself by
clinging to a you that no longer exists. And then you call your unhappiness
'middle age slump'.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">So you're monogamous today. Perhaps
one day you realize you not only <b><i>can</i></b> love more than one person at the
same time, but that it's okay. However, if your eyes are fully on being
monogamous, you could be strangling your own happiness.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">So, you're gay. One day you may
realize you're in love with a member of the opposite sex. Then what? Do you put
your blinders on & refuse to allow yourself that love just because you’re
gay? Or do you applaud who you are and open yourself to something new and
unique? Doesn’t mean the label of ‘gay’ doesn’t still fit… it might just have a
few adjustments.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Another problem with labels: once
you've proclaimed yourself, people expect you to remain their definition of
that label for the rest of your existence. If you change, they will try and
shame you back into that box. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;">I had that experience a few years ago. I joined Fetlife when it was first starting out. The larger it became, the more 'rules' people stuck to this and that, not allowing anyone to believe anything outside of their rules. I had been in a monogamous group and admitted one day that I could actually see myself happier in a poly relationship. You would think I had declared I was the </span>Antichrist<span style="font-size: 12pt;"> from the reactions I got. That shame did two things - it kicked me in the ass to finally leave the fakeness that is Fetlife. It also shamed me into not accepting that part of myself for a few years.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Throughout our lifetime, we go in
and out of labels. They change, morph, all because we age, grow, <b>CHANGE</b>. There’s no reason to mark
ourselves indelibly with a label that may not fit us in 10, 20, or 50 years.
Except that society wants to label us and we were taught to label from before
birth. They say that babies in the womb hear their parents. And how many
parents discuss the sex of the baby? Mucking a child’s head up with labels
before they are even born.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">So what labels can you shuck? I have
so many I can’t count them, but I do know a few:<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<li>Once I was an abused child... I no
longer paint myself with that label. I survived. I overcame. I moved on.</li>
<li>Once I struggled with being a girl,
when I knew I was a boy. Now, I’m happy with all my genders & the body I
have.</li>
<li>Once I tried to believe in a god,
and painted myself with a religious brush... and then one day I realized the
only person I was praying to was myself and became free.</li>
<li>Once I was a romance author, now I'm so much more and am slowly moving on to the genre I have loved since I was a child.</li>
<li>Once I was shy... now I’m reserved
& on the ASD spectrum, and that's okay. I’m not clinging to those labels.
Everything changes so fast that I could wake up tomorrow and be the belle of
the ball. And that’s more than okay too.</li>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Instead of labeling ourselves with
what we are now, let's label ourselves with what we want to become. (And once those labels become real, then we thank them, and move on to new ones.) Thank those
labels you’ve painted yourself with for serving you and for saving you and then
let them fade into who you <b><i>were</i></b>. If you have to label yourself,
do it with who you <i>want</i> to be. For
instance:<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<li>Today: I’m a writer</li>
<li>Tomorrow: I’m a best-selling author
who brings in millions, has millions of amazing fans, and supports a non-profit
I feel strongly about</li>
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<li>Today: I’m happily single</li>
<li>Tomorrow: I’m in a wonderful,
loving, fun, sensual relationship with 2 men</li>
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<li>Today: I’m tri gender</li>
<li>Tomorrow: I’m the best me ever</li>
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<li>Today: I’m happy</li>
<li>Tomorrow: I’m expansion</li>
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<li>Today: I climb mountains</li>
<li>Tomorrow: I leap from summit to
summit</li>
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Who will you be tomorrow?</span></div>
Cynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-61226088512006678822017-09-06T09:58:00.000-07:002017-09-06T09:58:33.024-07:00We can overcomeHave you listened to the airwaves lately? Hatred. Anger. Spite. It's everywhere, especially since the 2016 Presidential Election. And each day since, those negative emotions have intensified. Let me explain that I understand it. I'm one of those groups that the current administration wants to stomp all over. So yes, I get it.<br />
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But sending negative emotions does NOT solve anything. In fact, it makes it worse. Remember the axiom of 'What you resist persists'? That's exactly what is happening now. Remember that our thoughts and feelings create our reality? That's happening now.<br />
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I'm talking about our health and our Earth.<br />
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Neo Naziism/white supremism is on the rise.<br />
Hurricane Harvey hit Houston<br />
Hurricane Irma is heading for Florida at 185 miles per hour<br />
Up in the Pacific Northwest, we have hideous forest fires wherein our air quality has been bad for weeks and we are told not to go outside. The thing is, the smoke gets in, no matter what.<br />
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So what am I suggesting? We need to stop the extreme negative emotions circling Mother Earth. She's just responding to what we send out. Yes, I know we have the 'right' to be angry, but anger is only hurting us. Do what you need to, but clear up your feelings. Clear up your hatred. Clear up your anger and spite.<br />
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Meditate. Relax. Send out peace and love - yes, even to the man masquerading as the emperor in charge.<br />
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Remember, all these negative emotions are caused by one thing: Fear. Don't let fear take you.<br />
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Love. Peace. Joy. Hope. Focus on those emotions. Find the things you're thankful for. List them one by one daily. Hug a friend. Turn the conversation to something that brings good feelings rather than bad.<br />
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We can overcome, but not by hateful thoughts and social media posts. Send out love - in huge torrents, and let that love fill you up.<br />
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NamasteCynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-48437435099157327222017-08-24T14:07:00.001-07:002017-08-24T14:07:58.293-07:00Psychic Attack is real--and not fun--but you can protect against it<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<b>What is a Psychic Attack?</b><br />
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If a person is empathic in any way or has psychic abilities, you will feel the emotions, both positive and negative, from people. That is NOT psychic attack. It is you pulling in the energy around you. You can protect yourself from external energies and learn to recognize them. But again, it is NOT a psychic attack.<br />
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A psychic attack is not just feeling negative energy. It is having negative energy sent AT us by someone else. It's a purposeful attack, even if the person didn't mean do it <i>on purpose</i>. A 'on purpose' psychic attack would be someone who purposefully deals with dark energy, dark spell casting, etc. They produce a psychic spell to attack you. Again - very 'on purpose'. "Off purpose" psychic attacks are from people who might be jealous of you or hold a grudge against you for some reason. They may mentally send you hateful thoughts, but they most likely do not have any idea that those hateful thoughts are a psychic attack.<br />
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<b>My Psychic Attack</b><br />
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4 days ago I went through a wonderful evening where I achieved a new ledge, a new baseline of awareness. Less than 2 days ago, my thoughts went dark. I couldn't see outside of the anger and frustration I was in suddenly. I found myself asking certain questions I hadn't been thinking of just moments before. I found a moment's respite through watching a video with Neville Goddard speaking, but it didn't turn me around and the little light I gleamed from his talk went out almost the moment I closed the video.<br />
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Yesterday I fought anger, frustration, and the desire to do harm constantly. I had a 2.5 hour respite in the middle of the day where I read Sara by Esther Hicks (And if you haven't read it, I highly suggest it. Fantastic book!). But almost the moment I ended the book, the dark questions and anger returned, taking small parts of the book and warping them in my head until I was back to those same dark questions again.<br />
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It should be no surprise that this morning I woke up in a really bad mood. Anger shimmered off me. I couldn't find hope. I couldn't find joy. I couldn't find a desire to get back to it. I was hopeless and thoughts of suicide pecked at the outer edge of my consciousness.<br />
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I called aloud for my guardians and my guardian angel to help me and I received the strangest thought - to go into my bathroom. I went in and another thought came to me. "Ask if it's yours." If you haven't played the "Is this mine?" game, you should try it. If you're empathic it will tell you if your bad feelings are from you or from someone else. The moment I asked that question mentally, all of the anger, fear, frustration, etc went away for a brief moment. My entire aura lightened and I knew what I had been feeling was NOT from me.<br />
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Unfortunately, the shock from realizing I had been suffering through someone else's thoughts made me freeze up and instantly the negative feelings came back. I burst into tears and once again begged to know what to do. I was reminded to protect myself. So I did in in the best way I know how. I imagined white in front of me, behind me, on each side of me, below me, and above me.<br />
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I was too jarred to make it work, so once again, I begged my guardian angel to help me. He strengthened my shield and in less than 20 seconds the dark energy was completely gone. And it's still gone because my shield is there. I cannot even explain the relief and lightness I feel.<br />
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<b>Ways of protection</b><br />
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Psychic attacks are pretty scary... IF you don't understand what's going on. However, once you know how to protect yourself, they aren't as terrifying.<br />
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There are tons of ways, but I'm going to give you the few ways I know of.<br />
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1. Ask your guardians for their protection (whether you know it or not, you have guardians who watch over you. They are waiting for you to ask, so ask.)<br />
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2. Imagine purse white light all around you. If you aren't currently UNDER psychic attack, this will protect you from it. IF, however, you are like I was and under attack, you will most likely need some extra help. Call on your guardian angel, your ascended masters, faeries, whatever good spirit you believe in, and ask them to strengthen your shield.<br />
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3. Use the "Is this mine?" game. If you're like me, you'll forget about it unless reminded, but it does give you the knowledge if bad energy is from within or without.<br />
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4. Shield yourself before you get out of bed in the morning. This one, I'll admit, is more of a reminder to myself to shield myself every day so this kind of thing can't have the same result.<br />
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Feel free to look up ways to fend off Physic Attack online. Keep in mind this warning: If the ways someone mentions have to do with fighting off the attack or sending back an attack, close the browser window. They are not going to help and will, in fact, make things worse. Feel light. Feel love. And continue in joy.<br />
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I wish I'd known all these things years ago. There were several times in my life where the negativity was so dark, so bad, I now wonder if that's what was going on.<br />
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Here's to living in light and shining the light of Universal Love at anyone sending bad vibes :)<br />
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NamasteCynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-27898703895923794942017-08-22T06:00:00.000-07:002017-08-22T06:00:18.680-07:00You #poetry #metaphysics #beauty #love #joyI had an epiphany the other night, along with a huge increase in knowledge. This came from that moment.<br />
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<span id="goog_1530549281"></span><span id="goog_1530549282"></span><br />Cynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-19977601126999656482017-08-20T11:28:00.000-07:002017-08-20T11:28:06.950-07:00Reaching a Baseline #metaphysics #LifeImprovementIn my path to knowing myself, I have had a few occurrences of what I would call reaching a new level of complete understanding. It's reaching a new ledge where my baseline is much higher than it was. It's always an incredibly affirming moment.<br />
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So, what is a baseline?<br />
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We all have emotional upheavals, left turns, right turns, and sometimes we feel like we're upside down. Baselines are where our 'normal' is. So if we are at the lowest rung, our baseline could possibly be pretty negative. Or numb. Or not understanding anything. We might start feeling good, but then something dislodges us and we go under the baseline and after we get out of it, are back to how we felt before.<br />
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At the beginning, that baseline doesn't necessarily feel 'good', but it's better than the horrible feelings we had.<br />
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However, if we are on a path of becoming a better 'me', at some point we will transition to a new baseline. With me, I've known it each time it happened. It's filled with universal love and happiness and incredible joy. And with it came the knowledge that this was my new 'normal' or baseline. This doesn't mean I won't have bad moments, but from past experiences I know those bad moments won't have the same hold on me as they have had in the past.<br />
<br /><b>Example</b>: About 6 months ago, I had a bit of a breakdown in spirit. I was frustrated because my three largest goals had still not come to pass after years and years. But what really annoyed me more than that was the fact I had a hard time getting as upset as I used to. It did not compute, so I built up like a thunderstorm and exploded. (My poor stuffed animal really took a beating). After the blow up, I did what I had done in the distant past. I curled up in my bed and expected to be there and depressed for hours. *snort* I had gone through 2 or 3 baseline changes before that. My new ledge was too positive to allow me to wallow. Instead I felt rather stupid and kind of embarrassed. Ten minutes later I was up and doing stuff that made me feel good.<br />
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Now, let me add a warning: Baselines are wonderful things and unless we are focused on breaking them, they will remain our new baseline until we reach the next one. However - you can break that baseline if you put your mind to it. While logic states that would be the silliest thing a person could do, logic and human actions don't go hand-in-hand as often as we would like. How do you go to a lower baseline? Keep up a bad mood. Keep up negativity. That will do it. So don't do that. Let your new baseline give you encouragement. Keep striving to go up. Don't go down.<br />
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This is what many call the Path to Enlightenment, I suppose. I think every ledge we reach is enlightenment. With each one we learn something new, with each one we're brought to a closer understanding of the universe and where we belong in it. And with each new baseline, we learn new levels of lessons we thought we already knew.<br />
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Understand, there are no finite numbers of baselines. This is no staircase where everyone at Baseline 1 is at the same level. Never compare your baseline to another. For one thing, that's purely ego talking. For another, you can't compare your ledge to another because no two people are EVER on the same baseline. We all have different life experiences (some multiple lives, some brand new), different challenges, and different emotional states.<br />
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One of the things I find is that you can't go for reaching a new level like a horse race. For one thing, you don't know where the next ledge is or what it means. But mainly? Reaching a new level comes easiest when you aren't trying at all. You're learning, you're growing, you're expanding. And then in one glorious moment, you know you've hit that new baseline.<br />
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With that baseline comes an incredible amount of love and power. It also comes with relief. While you know there will be ups and downs, you know that your new 'normal'--your new baseline--is so much higher than it used to be.<br />
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New knowledge is coming. New experiences are emerging. And you've just achieved a new level wherein you'll experience everything in a whole new way.<br />
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It's an exciting time to be.<br />
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NamasteCynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-79205670984668605802017-08-13T19:06:00.000-07:002017-08-13T19:06:03.958-07:00Slight change of course ~ Living in the #NowThis year, I decided to challenge myself and release 1 novel per month. I've done so. This summer I've seen a few things and with some of the knowledge my guides have brought me, my life is changing.<br />
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For instance, I won't be releasing anything after the trilogy I'm re-releasing on Sept 14th. I need the time to write, get caught up, and work on the biggest change I'm focused on. (Plus, releasing one book a month is insane. I couldn't focus on marketing any of my books because I was too busy getting the next book ready for release. I became so burnt out that I can barely write, let alone anything else.)<br />
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Neville Goddard spoke oft about living in the present. Living in the Now. Not in the future, not in the past, because the only time we truly have is Now.<br />
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It wasn't until recently that I recognized and admitted to my fear of living in said "Now". Not that I didn't want to - and consciously I didn't realize what I was doing. Or perhaps, I just wasn't ready.<br />
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I have received the same message from several sources and know I need to work on living in the Now, of being mindful.<br />
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My resistance is purely in the fact that a part of me is worried about who I will be when I am no longer who I was. From a logical standpoint, that sounds silly, but it's true nonetheless. My brain is continually running in a million different directions at once. How powerful will I be when I can truly focus?<br />
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It's an exciting thought. But looking back, I realize much of my fear and resistance comes from the fact that so many of the men who brought up living in the now, were not who I wanted to be. So why emulate someone who isn't who I want to be?<br />
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I've realized that focusing on the Now, on my present, does not mean I'm going to turn out like them. I won't have the same beliefs they do. I won't do the same things they do. I will still be, intrinsically me. I will just be a me who has major intense creative focus.<br />
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And that's a me I can get on board with.<br />
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I will hopefully be able to post from time to time about what I've found out. But there are so many things I've learned from my guardian angel and my guides this summer that were solely for me and that I cannot share. For no other reason than that the messages were for me, not anyone else.<br />
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So here's to living in the now. I'm starting off by taking a Mindfulness Meditation course and I've just today received some information Dr. Deepak Chopra did on living life in focus.<br />
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Added to my art courses and finishing out my releases, and the writing i hope to get back to this fall, the future looks amazing. By living in the Now.Cynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-48130004290763987242017-06-14T12:48:00.000-07:002017-06-14T12:48:15.238-07:00Sometimes it's hard to look on the bright sideAfter 5 years of working 8-20 hours a day every day on my writing, I'm finally at the point of accepting that "Do what you love and the money will follow" isn't working for me.<br />
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I have to believe there's got to be another reason that all my hard work hasn't paid off. I figure, over the 5 year span of time, I made about $5/day. Which comes out to about what? $0.30 an hour?<br />
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And I haven't just been working on my writing. I've been working hard on me. I've done so much and changed so much, so why isn't my external world reflecting my internal world?<br />
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I'm a writer - it's WHO I am. But since I can't make a living on it, it looks like I'm going to have to go out and get a job - I HATE JOBS. They don't work for me. They're awful, and constrictive, and squash me until I'm a writhing mess on the floor. The last JOB I had made me suicidal.<br />
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I'm bummed and feel like crying, but am desperately scrambling to figure out what went wrong and how I can change things around.<br />
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I can't live like this. And yet I can't live like 'that' either.<br />
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I'm not sure what went wrong. I'd say maybe it's just that I'm fundamentally wrong, but that tends to annoy my guardians and guides.<br />
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I'm tired. I could break into tears at any moment.<br />
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Stop the world. I want to get off.Cynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-73463885470899991272017-04-14T12:00:00.000-07:002017-06-14T12:49:43.827-07:00That moment when... you realize you're on the wrong trackLife is good. And I've felt empowered for awhile now. I've got all the indicators that my goals are in the bag and I need to 'stay the course.'<br />
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That's the hard part for me. And probably not for the reason you think.<br />
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I have some bad experiences with man-made religion and one of it's tenants is always "no matter what, keep doing what we tell you to do. Even if life throws hell at you, just keep going."<br />
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My reaction? An emphatic 'F*ck that."<br />
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The differences in religion's look at the concept and the universal look at the concept is both similar and different, but when I'm in that spot, it is difficult to keep on, keeping on.<br />
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Emotional wise, I've got it going on. I'm a happy person and love life.<br />
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However, when you work on your passion 16-20 hours a day and it feels good and it flows - and while it isn't always easy, it is something I find fulfilling to do - and YET - I'm supposed to keep on, keeping on. I'm supposed to stay the course.<br />
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However, I can't afford rent or food or anything.<br />
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So, I figured - Okay, I'll keep up my writing, but I'll also look into web work where I can pull in some ready cash. I was a web developer for over a decade and I do all my own websites, so easy cha-ching, right? I've been on this concept for a week now. It's just hit me this feels like swimming against the tide. I haven't made any strides into the knowledge I was seeking -each thing I looked into fell short and I was left feeling like I was reading Arabic instead of code - and I'm constantly testy and have a headache.<br />
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<b><i>I'm going in the wrong direction.</i></b><br />
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Archangel Michael has been trying to tell me, but I've just rubbed away the warnings.<br />
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So, okay, I will walk away from that direction. And trust that the universe puts my goals into my path because I believe in the universe and that things are coming my way - all my hopes and dreams. But every time I ask for help and intuition to recognize something I need to do, the guidance I get is 'Keep doing what you're doing".<br />
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In the meantime, when you can't get the basics covered, it does make one scramble.<br />
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I don't know in which direction the universe will send me in next. I'm keeping my eyes open and trying to figure it out.<br />
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In the meantime, I will keep asking and looking for intuition.<br />
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Come on, universal force!Cynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-19504343954713936432017-03-14T06:00:00.000-07:002017-03-14T06:00:21.811-07:00It's time to banish fear<div class="MsoNormal">
Fear originally was a very good thing. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<i>There’s a mountain falling down. Run! <o:p></o:p></i></div>
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<i>There’s a saber-tooth tiger coming your way. Run faster than the guy next to you! </i><o:p></o:p></div>
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Unfortunately, over the centuries and millennia, fear has
become something else. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Fear is a tool. It’s a tool of control. The easiest way for
someone to control you is to get you to fear something and tell you that they
are the only one who can save you from it. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Politicians use it. “If you vote for X, the world will be
destroyed. You’d best vote for me because I can protect your interests.” Usually
combined with a smarmy smile.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Religious leaders use it. “If you don’t follow our rules and
pay us tithing, you’re going to hell. If you don’t obey our god, our way, you’re
going to hell.”<o:p></o:p></div>
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Corporations, advertising companies, and doctors use it. “Use
our product or nobody will ever want anything to do with you. Follow us on
Facebook because only ‘we’ tell the truth. Use our product or you’ll die.”<o:p></o:p></div>
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Fear has become the most powerful tool to use people for
your own purposes. It’s why it’s grade A in the bully’s handbook.<o:p></o:p></div>
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It’s also the biggest way to draw to yourself exactly what
you fear. The more you fear something, the more likely it is to come to pass. I
personally think that’s why we have the current regime we have. Too many people
feared it.<o:p></o:p></div>
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It’s time to squash the fear. It’s time to deny the fear. It’s
time, Friends, to stop letting fear control lives. If someone else cannot
control you, YOU ARE FREE. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Did you get that? If someone cannot control you, YOU ARE
FREE. Of course, there’s also the caveat that you should not be trying to
control anyone else either – that makes you one of ‘them’. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Each of us is the only one who can guide our own life. We
are the captain of our particular ship. By giving into fear, we allow someone
else to run our life, make our own choices, steer us where they want us to be.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Whether you believe the Bible to be the word of an
all-knowing god or that it’s just a bunch of lessons that help us figure out
how to make the right life for ourselves, look at a small section of the story
of Moses. After he went up the mount, he came down to find his people having a
grand old party, creating the kind of god they understood--A hateful god, a
vengeful god, a controlling, fear-mongering god. He tried to get them to listen
to the truth, but they didn’t want the truth – that we are our own god, that we
are the reason things happen. We control our destiny. Instead, they wanted
someone else to control it, someone else to blame. <o:p></o:p></div>
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In the religion I grew up in, there was the strong belief
that there were 2 plans – the plan from Jesus Christ where we would have
freedom to make our own choices, and the plan from Lucifer, where we would be
forced to follow others’ plans.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I ask you – look at the world. The religions and political
leaders are forcing people to follow their plans and their largest weapon is
FEAR. They’re following the supposed Lucifer’s plan, whether they know it or
not. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Now some will parry that we must have society, that without
society and rules and laws, that a lawless state of death and destruction would
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CLUE IN FEAR.<o:p></o:p></div>
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If all people were focused on their lives and their futures
and happiness and gratitude and all things good, there would be nothing to
fear. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Fear is truly the only thing we should fear. Because it’s
the fastest way to negative energy.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Cast it off, friends. Toss it aside. Fear harms you. It
harms your family, your neighbors, your city, state, country… it harms the
world. <o:p></o:p></div>
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If you don’t fear, there’s a whole world of hope and love
and gratitude and joy and every good thing.<o:p></o:p></div>
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What’s the opposite of fear? Love. If you feel fear, think
of something you’re grateful for. Once you’ve tempered the fear, push out love.
Most likely those who can’t control you will go elsewhere once they’ve realized
you aren’t worth their time and resources. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Yes, there are places real fear fits – such as falling off a
cliff. When your inner voice says “Step back so you don’t fall” Listen to it.
However, if someone tells you that you have to do things their way or you’ll
fall? Think twice, back up, and think gratitude. Not for them, but for something
you’re truly grateful for. Then turn and walk away. You don’t want to hang
around people who want to control you, anyway.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Cynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-65446268091969547802017-03-07T06:00:00.000-08:002017-03-07T06:00:00.270-08:00What is your relationship with time?Special Relativity<br />
E=MC2 - Energy = mass x the speed of light squared<br />
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Creating My own life<br />
V=GT2<br />
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In special relativity (I used to think the way people talked about it that it was called Spatial Relativity), Einstein found that mass is formed by kinetic energy divided by twice the speed of light.<br />
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What Einstein may or may not have realized is this wasn't a formula just for science. It's the formula for life.<br />
E (Energy) is the rate at which something vibrates - its V (Vibration)<br />
M (Mass) is the end result of what we wish for G (Goal)<br />
C (Speed of light), which at the time was the fastest speed he could imagine and he squared it, making it infinity - it's T (Time it takes for said goal to arrive)<br />
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So E=MC2 can be written as M=E/C2 = the mass is the end result of the energy expunged divided by the time required to create said energy.<br />
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Or V=GT2 can be written as G=V/T2 = the end result becomes physically present when the vibration is suitably achieved, divided by the time it takes to get there (squared with itself). What does this mean?<br />
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First off - realize that time is not constant. It was man made and doesn't truly exist. So time multiplied by itself doesn't mean much except in the process of infinity (∞). So it could be written as G=V/∞. If you break that down, the vibration required to achieve your goal is a lot less than you think.<br />
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So if you're thinking that you have to have V amount of joy, V amount of happiness, and V amount of peace to achieve G, think again. You only need V divided by ∞X∞. That truly is a small, microscopic amount.<br />
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I think that while it is true we need to achieve the vibration to achieve our goal, that the human ability to expand that to ultimate levels is incorrect.<br />
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We believe that things take TIME and that we have to fully achieve said VIBRATION before our GOAL will appear. Which is silly because that would mean we had to achieve the perfect level of vibration without waffling and... anyone else freaking out at the concept? That kind of thing is rough on a perfectionist like me. It doesn't happen much anymore, but I used to freak out every time I would feel a little less than perfect, afraid I'd pushed my goal further away.<br />
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What if human thought is the only thing standing between US and OUR GOAL?<br />
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Because the vibration we need, divided by Time multiplied by itself, is microscopic compared to what we think it is.<br />
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What does that mean? It means we need to set aside what we used to think and embrace Special Relativity. Time is depending on nothing. It is not relative to Earth or time zones. Instead, embrace spacetime. What is spacetime? It means that 'Events that occur at the same time for one observer can occur at different times for another'. *cough* meaning that time is different for everyone. (No wonder doctors are always running late for some patients and are always on time for others.)<br />
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There is no time except for that which we decide. I have had instantaneous reactions between desire/demand and output for rather large things. I am also still waiting for some of my goals to come to fruition. The thing is - to the universe, there is no time. Time does not exist in a all-for-one construct. If it did, waiting at the dentist's office would be the same length of time as waiting for your favorite concert or waiting for summer to begin.<br />
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So throw out your beliefs on time. NO goal is more difficult than any other. NONE. Spontaneous healings happen. Spontaneous achievements happen. The ONLY THING THAT CONTROLS THE VARIABLE BETWEEN WANTING SOMETHING AND GETTING IT IS TIME and our relationship with it. And that variable is YOU.<br />
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What is your relationship with time?<br />
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I know I need to rethink mine. My angels have kept telling me to stop thinking of goals in terms of 'hard' or 'easy'. And I should know that considering I've had spontaneous healing and saw reality change in the blink of an eye.<br />
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So all together... Time doesn't exist except for in the belief we have in it. It's time to conquer that variable - because it makes no difference in reaching our goals UNLESS WE COMMAND IT. And yes, if we believe something will take time, that's commanding that something to take time.<br />
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So if G=V/∞X∞ then it takes no time at all to reach said goal. So why wait? Make that goal now. Make ∞X∞, NOW.<br />
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<br />Cynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-50999010807131593632017-02-07T06:00:00.000-08:002017-02-07T06:00:26.078-08:00What does an angel really look like?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Every day it seems like I come across a spiritual individual who tells me what an angel looks like. Or a fairy. Or a dragon. Or a unicorn. I listen to their description and then go on with the knowledge that it's a wonderful thing in our giving universe that every single person can see energy beings in a different way.<br />
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So what do they look like? Whatever you think they should look like. It's that simple. Energy beings are just that - energy. Energy has no form. It's just light. The human mind, unable to handle something it doesn't understand, does what it can to shape the energy form into something it understands.<br />
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It's why so many people describe angels as being pale skinned with golden hair and white fluffy wings - they were raised with that concept so when they 'see' an angel, that is what they see. And don't for one moment think that's wrong. It's not. It's very right because they see what they recognize as a loving angel. And they put a face/body/shape to it that helps the energy make sense to them.<br />
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But it's no more or less right than someone else seeing an angel as a Nubian goddess.<br />
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I've always been one for the idea that everyone is welcome to their own ideas and opinions. And when it comes to angels or energy beings from outside of our vibration, what you see is what you get.<br />
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The very first angel I saw was, well I would call her adorable. Jaime was short and round and had full cheeks, a charming smile, and lovely olive skin. And no - no wings at all. There were also times she appeared to me older with long hair, a more defined face - more like one of the Elves.<br />
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The second angel I saw is one that I continually have talks with - Archangel Uriel. Now again, let me state that what I see is not necessarily what you see.<br />
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He has appeared to me in three different forms:<br />
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<li>As a wizened old man with energy so strong there was no way to make out his features as the brilliance of the white light overpowered everything else. But there is no masking his wonderful loving voice. It's how I recognize him in any form my mind puts him in.</li>
<li>As a unicorn, again, his energy overrode any ability for color so I only saw it as a clear, startling white.</li>
<li>As a dragon - for once he had color. As always, he had a sense of humor.</li>
<li>One time I decided to see if I could see him without my mind forcing form on him. I ended up giving myself a headache because it seems the human mind needs to recognize form and kept trying to form him into something recognizable. I finally gave up and just let it form him into a unicorn.</li>
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I also have a guardian angel, who I have seen in two different forms. But I always recognize him due to his scent. Even when I can't 'see' him, I can sense him due to a very specific scent.</div>
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And yes, I have a guardian unicorn as well. He has a rich black coat, coal black eyes, and a golden horn. If I believed that what others said was true, I would think I was doing it wrong because everyone who talks about unicorns says they are always white. They aren't. They appear as we expect them to appear. I let my unicorn be who he was and he and his herd of three came to me all with the same beautiful raven hair and golden horns. </div>
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Just last night I was listening to Ros who teaches about angels saying that guardian angels have no form, that they are just energy and rings of light. I smiled because this is the wonder of the universe. That we see and understand things in our own ways. </div>
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Doreen Virtue teaches about Fairies and she has very specific concepts of what fairies & other elementals look like to her. I've heard others scoff, but I say it makes sense. Because everyone sees energy beings the way they expect. The way she sees fairies isn't the way I see them, but that makes neither of us wrong. We just see what we 'expect' to see when we see these wonderful beings.</div>
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So what does an angel really look like? What does any energy being really look like? Whatever you expect them to. So you don't have to wonder. You already know. And when you're ready to embrace them and speak to them, they will answer you in a form you understand.</div>
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<br />Cynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-74183157528386448992017-01-31T05:00:00.000-08:002017-01-31T05:00:32.773-08:00Who's Reality are you Buying Into?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Before we are aware that we are the masters of our own universe and that we control our own vibration, we are but a leaf in a storm, being flicked about at its whim. Without the strength to find out own way, we are ripped from our branch and sent out into the world without anything to hold onto except for the fact we have no control.<br />
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In some ways, I think people cling to that concept - after all, it is easier to blame others than to recognize that you are at fault for what comes to you.<br />
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The opposite is in fact true - when you recognize just how much of what happens to or comes to you is from you, it gives you a better bargaining chip. Because if something comes your way you don't want, you change the vibration you put out so you get a different response instead.<br />
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However, that doesn't mean we don't have knee-jerk reactions. Right now, there are tons of those going on in Washington DC. I keep away from the news because quite frankly, it's sole purpose is to drag the lowest vibration across our minds. As I prefer to stay at a high vibration, I stay away from that.<br />
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Unfortunately, a couple days ago, I got dragged down by a plenthora of this junk coming across my field of vision. When I realized what it was doing, I shut down.<br />
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I used to think it was a good thing. It's not. Because even though shutting down emotionally blocks the bad stuff from getting in, it ALSO blocks the good stuff too. And I don't want to block the good stuff.<br />
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Those knee-jerk reactions are, in effect, giving in to someone else's reality. Buying into what they are selling and to be honest: The majority of people do seem to peddle low vibrations as if they are a drug they can't quite get enough of.<br />
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However, as horrible as it feels when we get a taste of that sludge, part of the reason for our horror is the fact we have been living in our own reality and have just been thrust into someone else's. Into mass consciousness's reality.<br />
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Mass consciousness is NOT where we want to be unless it is a mass consciousness who is on the same path we are. And since we are all on our own journeys, those are few and far between. Going to new age spirituality retreats is the closest I can think of, but even then, the goals of the people attending are not the same. The exact vibration is not the same. But most of them are at a higher vibration and if that's what you're looking for, go. However if you are already at a high vibration, just keep on your journey.<br />
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Giving into anyone else's reality is giving away your power. I'm talking about anyone else. A religious leader, a new age guru, a spiritualist, your neighbor down the street, the military, the government, the individual who has a sign up on the street corner telling you they know when the last day of the world is - all of those people are trying to push their reality into the mass consciousness. Because if they can do that - it can push their vibration far enough ahead that they get their goal on a wider vibration. Which might sound good, but usually is not.<br />
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Where does that leave you? Their journey is NOT your own. And yet you've given over your reality to them. Step away. Remember who you are and what you see. Remember what you want. <b><i>Remember</i></b> where you are going.<br />
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Stop following the masses. Stop listening to others. <i>LIVE YOUR TRUE LIFE</i>. Support your own universe.<br />
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<br />Cynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-88337798316519868212017-01-24T17:56:00.000-08:002017-01-24T17:56:16.650-08:00Dumping Energy BlocksThere are a lot of gurus out there. Tons. Possibly millions. And guess what? They are all probably right. For them. And possibly a few of them have the right path for you to follow.<br />
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However, there is something that may be holding you back.<br />
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It doesn't matter which of the paths you take. Whether its following Neville Goddard or Abraham-Hicks, the masters of The Secret or the spiritualist down at your local New Age store. If this one thing is holding you back, none of their work will get you where you want to be.<br />
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Now, don't screech and fall over. Let me explain.<br />
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We're all energy, right? And everything we're talking about deals with energy. So if you have an energy block against whatever it is you're going for and you don't take care of it? You can try and try and try and try and try as much as you can. You can even succeed. However, if you haven't cleared that energy block, your success is likely to turn on its head and leave you wondering what happened.<br />
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Case in point: I have been working on myself - spiritual/new age wise - for twenty years. And the last three years intensely. However, my three biggest goals have not come to fruition. And in one of those, the advancement I made over the last few years went backward. I could have panicked. Instead, I asked my guardian angel what was going on.<br />
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I was blocked. I had a huge energy block against money. HUGE. Humongous. We're talking about the Everest of energy blocks. So I asked my guardian angel what I could do because I was partway to panic thinking that all my hardwork has been for nothing. He put one word in my head. "Reiki"<br />
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Now I've been a Reiki Master/Trainer for years and I know it cures emotional and mental issues as well as physical, but it never once occurred to me to use it to break up energy blocks. So i gave myself a Reiki treatment, with the whole focus on dissolving that energy block.<br />
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The very next day, I received hundreds of dollars from unexpected sources.<br />
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So I'm telling you from experience. If you aren't gaining what you want and you've worked on it for awhile, you may have an energy block you are unaware of. There are tons of ways to clear energy blocks, though I have to say Reiki is now my favorite. While I always enjoyed EFT, with Reiki, I don't have to be in the bad energy moment to do it. It's calm. It's peaceful. And it works.<br />
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I highly suggest you seek out a Reiki practitioner if you feel the need to break through your energy blocks. We aren't healers. But we are conduits and we can focus on specifics.<br />
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Good luck to you and may all your dreams come to fruition.<br />
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NamasteCynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-9212431806932372562016-09-30T08:31:00.000-07:002016-09-30T08:31:05.728-07:00Taking offense is a choice - and a signAs we work at clearing out negative energies and becoming our true selves, we're human and will still find ourselves reacting to certain things. And that is both good and bad. The bad is that it darkens our energy and takes us away from our path and our goals. However, there is a good side - it helps us to look inside and recognize resistance.<br />
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For instance - how often do you take offense? I'm not saying that whatever offends you isn't wrong - it might be. However I believe that 90% of what offends us is not intentional. And the 10% that is? If we can choose not to be offended and let it float by, that individual will go find someone else to offend as what they are looking for is a reaction.<br />
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So let's talk about the 90%. Someone says something and you instantly bite back. Or at least you want to.<br />
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Stop. Think. Why did it send such anger/discomfort coursing through your system? Do you really want to feel that way? No. You don't.<br />
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However, that instant offense reaction does tell you there is some sort of negative energy trapped within you that needs releasing. And knowing that is a very good thing - because once you've released it, you are a lot less likely to react in the future. And when you don't react, you stop putting out negative energy about it. And when you stop putting out negative energy about it, you stop attracting things that would cause that offended reaction.<br />
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Being offended is NOT about what someone said or did. It is about your feelings and your energy blocks. Release them. Make the conscious choice to not be offended. And when those feelings come up, use your favored way to release the energy (EFT is really good for times like that as its works best when you are feeling the negative emotion) and let it go.<br />
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The next time something offends you, you will find it will offend you less. So you rid the energy until you are no longer offended by what others do or say.<br />
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And in that, there is freedom and your energy is flying high.<br />
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And after all, that's what we should be focused on. The only reality we can control is our own. We don't have the right to try to control someone else's reality.Cynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-88721625331139887592016-09-15T06:43:00.001-07:002016-09-15T06:43:52.667-07:00Don't give your power awayEven when someone has been working on creating the life they want as long as I have, we can slip up. Lately, I've been feeling powerless. I didn't want to feel that way - I didn't recognize that I was feeling that way. But I was.<br />
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See, a former set of contracts hasn't paid me for sales since December 2015. Not only have I been floundering due to lack of funds, but the fact is the owner is not a good business person and I didn't want to deal with her. But I did the letter of the law via the contract and as of today, I should be feeling great because <i>technically</i> all 21 books are now mine.<br />
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But guess what? I spent last night in a huge amount of stress and I woke up stressed this morning with horrible thoughts in my head.<br />
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But then I realized what I had done - I gave her the power. I let her make me feel powerless. And when that happens, yes, folks - she had the power. But guess what? She doesn't anymore. Because I took my power back.<br />
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How? By realizing what was happening and saying aloud "I have the power. This is my life. I am the architect and this is how it is." I then stated in clear terms exactly how my life is.<br />
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I no longer feel powerless. And I have clearly stated how I have created my life. Now that the energy has shifted, the universe is at my command in a way I want rather than in the way I did not want.<br />
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<br />Cynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-51150266388767625502016-09-03T06:51:00.000-07:002016-09-03T06:51:12.878-07:00Clear messages from the universe - Live YOUR True LifeI've spent most of my life thinking the universe wasn't speaking to me. It's only been in the last few years that I realized it wasn't that it wasn't speaking to me. It was that I didn't know how to listen.<br />
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The universe, God, all that is'ness, whatever you want to call it, doesn't always communicate like we expect it to. I was raised in a conservative Christian religion where I was told that god would answer me when I prayed. And they always shared stories that those answers came in words.<br />
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*buzzer*<br />
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The fact is, the universe communicates in many ways, but those words I was expecting in my head? That isn't how the universe communicates. At least not to me. When I hear that, it's my angels and guides talking to me. And the universe is such a wonderful, giving wonder, that if you don't ask, it won't answer.<br />
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And that includes your angels & guides. They don't interfere or answer unless we specifically ask.<br />
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But they aren't the only way communication comes.<br />
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The universe, itself, speaks to us in so many ways. Numbers. Animals. Insects. Oracle Cards. And once you learn to listen to the ways in which the universe communicates, it's vocabulary is incredible. You just have to learn to listen.<br />
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Along side listening, the religion I grew up with was big on 'not seeking for a sign'. I was taught NEVER to ask for a sign from god that he was listening to me.<br />
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*buzzer*<br />
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Another falsity. The universe has no problem with us asking it for a sign that it's listening and for signs to go forward. Where the problem is, is if we begin to rely on a specific sign so much that we won't move without it.<br />
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When I first started with oracle cards, I was amazed at their accuracy. And instantly fell into a pit of leaning on them rather than relying on my own thoughts and intuition (mainly because until now I didn't trust my intuition). From that point, whenever I would go to the oracle cards, they would give me nonsense. Stuff that did not in any way, have to do with my question.<br />
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Because I was relying on specific signs, wanting the cards to make my decisions for me. *Double Buzzer*. Once I stopped relying on them, they've popped up at times when I least expect as a sign from the universe.<br />
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The universe and our angels and guides are here to help us. They want to help us. Our angels & guides are anxious to help. But in all, it is My life and they won't make decisions for me. They will encourage in those decisions. But they won't tell me what to do.<br />
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And I just recently had the epiphany of why.<br />
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If they make all our decisions, it is taking everything away from us. From that moment, we are not living the life we came here to live. Instead we are living a life someone else is writing for us.<br />
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And when we live a life not ours, we can't function at full happiness, full joy, and full power. Instead, we're likely to make a pig's ear out of the whole thing.<br />
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<ul>
<li>Working the career someone else told you to be? </li>
<li>In the kind of relationship you've been told you should be in? </li>
<li>Going to college because your family and society told you you should?</li>
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If you have planned out and are living a life that isn't yours, you are not living the most fulfilled life you can. </div>
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It's why I'm putting things together to help. Now that I understand why I hit bumps in my life and why those things didn't work, I want to help you live the empowered, fulfilled, true life I am. </div>
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Cynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-58729684014164439272016-08-26T17:42:00.000-07:002016-08-26T17:42:14.414-07:00Just a quick updateHi all :)<br />
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I know it's been a couple months since I've posted, but so much has happened spiritually in that time I haven't been able to slow down enough to jot it down. I'll be telling more soon as I'm developing a new program from me! Yikes.<br />
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That sounds both scary and exciting, but yes, I'm working on my own program to help you enjoy the best life.<br />
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There will be blog posts and youtube videos and I'm not sure of what else, but I wanted to drop in and let you know before I go back to the planning stages.<br />
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I hope you are creating the best life ever.<br />
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See you soon!<br />
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NamasteCynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-70084388619635967232016-06-26T10:20:00.001-07:002016-06-26T10:20:32.250-07:00Don't stare at the sun...This morning I was at the gym reading a book on Astrology for Writers - basically how to do story and character creation using astrology archetypes as your guide. Just before I left, something hit me and it took a few minutes to percolate before I realized what was tugging at my brain.<br />
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So I had to create an image to encapsulate it. Essentially, everyone tells us "Don't look at the sun or you'll go blind." But there are more ways to go blind than just by physical sight. To go spiritually blind or blind to one's own good nature is far worse in my opinion.<br />
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So if you take the Sun as the hero aspect - intrinsically good, strong, heroic, always on the side of right, etc, and you stare at such an individual constantly, you'll always focus and intensify certain parts of who they are:<br />
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<li>Wow, look at how built he is.</li>
<li>She's so smart.</li>
<li>He can do anything.</li>
<li>She won the local marathon.</li>
</ul>
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Those kinds of thoughts are made up by our egos. And we start to compare their 'goodness' against what we consider our worst qualities.<br />
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<li>She's beautiful. She'd never look at someone like me.</li>
<li>He's built up his own business. I can't keep my mind on anything for 2 seconds.</li>
</ul>
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And we lose sight of our GOOD qualities. And every single one of us has good qualities, but if we focus only on what we perceive to be faults, we'll lose sight of what's good within us and we may even forget in time. And if we're focused on perceived faults, we'll just get more situations that emphasize those perceived faults and more faults to focus on.<br />
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So Don't Stare at the Hero, peeps. He/She is no better or worse than you are.<br />
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<br />Cynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-92120245576500662122016-06-21T10:33:00.002-07:002016-06-21T10:33:47.160-07:00Raising the vibration and other nifty tweaksI don't know about you, but in the past whenever I've heard someone like Neville Goddard say things like "I do not dream of having sex with my wife" - as in when he's working on a goal that isn't one of the things he did (and the one time I heard him say it, well, he sounded disgusted by the concept) - well, I figured he was being a stick in the mud.<br />
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As a woman who is proud to say "I enjoy sex and all the accouterments that go along with it" I tended to just go "Fine. You can be a stick in the mud." So in some of my scenes I've imagined with my man, erotic scenes have been a part of them.<br />
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But guess what I just learned? The electromagnetic signature put off by the brain in lust mode is earth bound and much, MUCH lower than I want it to be for my dreams to be made real.<br />
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<b>LIGHT GOES ON!</b></div>
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Which means when I indulged in erotic dreams about my man, they did not rise high enough to put them in the realm of where I needed to be.<br />
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Now, I will admit, they aren't the only dreams I have of him. In fact the main ones aren't sexual at all. But seeing those charts made me go "Ooooh! I get it now."<br />
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Now that's not to say that lust or sex is bad. It's not. At all. And when two people are connected physically and psychically it can be mind, body, and possibly reality blowing. But when I'm focused on a dream to be made real, the last thing I want to inject is an Earthbound, present physical reality, emotion.<br />
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So next time you dreamspire, keep the lust level to a minimum *grins*<br />
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Now, want to gain your dreams faster? Here's a couple nifty tweaks.<br />
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<b>Tweak #1:</b><br />
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We talk and hear about the feeling being there while we imagine the dream and I've always figured the dream gets us to that feeling and then it works hand-in-hand with the feeling that emerges from it. While true, if you can get to the feeling BEFORE you imagine your chosen goal/dream, instead of asking for the dream from a now state and then coming to the emotion, you are asking for the dream from the state of it already having happened. You're already the emotion/feeling you want to be, which means in your mental state it's already happened. So when you 'see' it in your minds eye, you are looking at an event that has already transpired.<br />
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And the universe goes, okey-dokey, here you go. As long as you can carry that emotion/feeling with you throughout the day. Since you already 'received' your dream, you aren't projecting a feeling of 'want'. Instead you are continually projecting the feeling of "Thank you!"<br />
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<b>Tweak #2:</b><br />
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There are only two main emotional states - Love and its opposite - fear. Fear takes the form of all the not-so-positive emotions -hate, doubt, lack... So if you can get into a continual state of Love, you've got life in hand.<br />
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Now I'm not talking about human love - not attraction, not romantic love, not mother's love, not father's love, not any kind of humanistic love. (Humanistic love always comes with rules) I'm talking about the pure, raw Love that comes from the universe. I can't describe it because the feeling is impossible to define. It's so much bigger than anything we humans are used to that it's awe-inspiring and, like I said, impossible to describe as anything but Love. It holds no judgment. It doesn't care about what you've done or what you're doing. It's not going to judge you or your actions. It's just Love and it fills you up like nothing you've ever felt before. And quite honestly, once you've felt it, you want to feel it again and again until that's what you want to feel at all times.<br />
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And when you're in a state of Love, you are already there. You're at the finish line. You've achieved every good, positive emotion because it's all bound up in Love. So get to that Love state and then imagine your goal. And then let it go. When in Love, all that stuff takes a backseat, it really does. Not because you don't want it, but because you've achieved the ultimate feeling in the universe and it's something you want to be in and bathe in forever.<br />
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And with letting go of your dream and bathing in the end emotion - Love - the universe can move smoothly to make it part of your physical reality.<br />
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<b>Tweak #3:</b><br />
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Deny. Deny. Deny.<br />
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Okay, maybe not three times. But we tend to focus too much on our physical senses. What we see, hear, touch, taste... But the fact is our physical reality - what is in front of us right now, is not real. It's not. It's a mixture of a product of our former thoughts and feelings and the quantum field. But guess what? You can change things now.<br />
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What do I mean? I find that this tweak works best on 'new' things that pop up. Things that have been around for awhile are so ingrained into my physical reality I assume it's harder for me to deny them. Which I think is all me - I will get to the point one day of being able to change things at will even if they've been around for awhile and look forward to that day.<br />
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Now let me state that this tweak will only work if you are ready for it. If you aren't prepared, if you haven't achieved the level needed for it, it won't work. This isn't a slam at you or me, it's just that there is a certain level of strength of mind and intuition and a level of Love that I think need to be attained first - though I could be wrong :D<br />
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So case in point:<br />
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A few weeks ago I found an ugly, blackish mole on my stomach. It wasn't a normal mole - I know what those look like. I also know what a melanoma looks like. And that's what it was. My mind scurried to make sense of what I was seeing and I scratched at it. I scratched off some skin, but the mole stayed, though now there was an ugly scratch through it.<br />
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And for a brief second I felt fear. But then I sat up and thought "Oh no!" So I took a deep breath, pulled my shirt down and spoke vocally to the universe. I don't remember my exact words, but they were something like this: "I've come too far and have conquered too much for my body to succumb to cancer. I refuse." I said a lot more than that, but after my diatribe was through, I said "And it is done." And then went about my life. That was the day when the water heater was being replaced and there were workmen in and out of the house and it was a mess.<br />
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I forgot about the mole. Until later that night when I was getting ready to take a shower for the first time in 3 days (Yay for hot water). I stripped off my clothes and went into the bathroom and that's when I remembered. So I looked down. It looked... different. No longer the same shape or color. More like a purplish/black. I reached down and swiped the pad of my finger over it and it came off. I stared at the round piece of plastic on my finger. And then down at my perfectly white stomach.<br />
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I changed my reality. Now, I AM NOT saying if you have cancer to ignore it and just go about your daily life as if it's not there. What I'm saying is that before I could build the mole into more than it was, I used the denial technique to deny its existence. And it worked. I got rid of it BEFORE it could plant itself firmly in my consciousness.<br />
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Like I said, I haven't found it works as well with older things. Though I'm trying.<br />
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I hope some of these tweaks for you and if they do, please let me know. I'd love to get a group together and test some of the things I've been finding work for me lately and see if they work on others as well.<br />
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Have a wonderful week.<br />
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NamasteCynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-17280665094695846762016-06-15T12:47:00.000-07:002016-06-15T12:47:03.452-07:00Day 40 of #40days of meditationWow. Day 40. So much has happened in the last 40 days, I am amazed. So much growth in a period of 40 days just because I wanted to get back into the habit of meditating.<br />
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First off, I will continue daily to meditate because of all the amazing things that have occurred.<br />
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<ul>
<li>I found love.</li>
<li>I re-opened my chakras.</li>
<li>I became love.</li>
<li>I saw a miracle happen right in front of my eyes - my 2nd reality shift I was aware of.</li>
<li>I recognized some of my limiting beliefs and have cast them off.</li>
<li>I've met and interacted with several angels and guides. </li>
<li>I'm recognizing intuition.</li>
<li>I have a much better relationship with the divine.</li>
<li>I was given a rose by my guides.</li>
<li>Last night I was shown a beautiful vision from my guides.</li>
</ul>
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And so many more I cannot think of in this moment - but that was only in 40 days. Let me repeat - all those amazing things occurred since I started my 40 days of daily meditating practice. I changed the kinds of meditation I used and the times as I found what worked for me and what didn't.<br />
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This is all kinds of amazing.<br />
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Now for a little humor. Have you ever read C.S. Lewis's <i>Screwtape Letters</i>? It is a novel where a senior Demon Screwtape writes letters to his nephew Wormwood, a Junior Tempter how to secure the damnation of someone he's dealing with. In one of the letters, Screwtape tells Wormwood, who is fretting because his human is researching something positive, that he is to suggest to his human that he is hungry. By suggesting to him he is hungry, he will walk away from the book and hopefully not return.<br />
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Now, today as I was going through a clearing exercise from Dr. Joe Dispenza's book <i>Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself</i>, I was in the path of unmemorizing the emotion doubt, when suddenly I started getting this egging on of "Go get a Circus Peanut." Do you remember Circus Peanuts? They are orange and sweet and usually hard as a rock. But I have some that are soft. And this voice kept suggesting I take a break from what I was doing and go eat a Circus Peanut or two.<br />
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At this point, Joe was talking about listening to the ways our ego, our body, our subconscious mind tries to dissuade us from taking control back and getting rid of things that don't serve us. And suddenly I realized what my body was doing. And I burst out laughing. And that's when that memory of C.S. Lewis's book came back to me. And I laughed harder.<br />
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I ignored the little insistent voice and went into the meditation. Now in this meditation, the relaxation mode is 25 minutes long and is of visioning and feeling your body being covered by water. And my ego started saying things like "Who willingly drowns? Get up! Run away!"<br />
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It was definitely threatened by what I was doing. But I ignored it and kept going and it kept throwing things at me but once the clearing part started, it's voice disappeared - I guess it finally realized I was fully in control and must know what I was doing.<br />
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So 40 days down and many more days left in my new daily practice of meditation and change.<br />
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And here's to the next amazing 40 days.<br />
<br />NamasteCynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-34264228714810742362016-06-12T08:37:00.000-07:002016-06-12T08:37:35.764-07:00Day 37 of #40days of meditationWell, Day 36 was interesting.<br />
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All day long I felt uneasy and malcontent. Late afternoon, I realized I hadn't felt the tingling in my third eye all day. So I tried to meditate, using my grounding+chakra balancing guided meditation, but it wasn't working. So I did a few other things and went back to do it again. I still had difficulty. I could feel the slight tingle but it wasn't nearly as strong as I've gotten used to over the last week or so.<br />
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I guess my being uneasy & overwrought all day exploded mid-talk with my angel. See, yesterday morning I was beginning to read a book by Dr. Joe Dispenza. And he made a comment about how we make the internal changes so that our external world changes and that there's no other reason to do it. And that kept pecking at me all day. I kept thinking - I feel better. I have an open heart. I'm happier. I'm more joyful. And yet.... Where are my big goals?<br />
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And suddenly a huge wash of shame and guilt and "I'm not worthy" swamped me as if I had been tossed into a deep pool of it. I jerked out of my meditation and went through anger and shame and fury and a huge cocktail of negative emotions.<br />
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However... and this is the part that occurred to me this morning. It lasted but a very short while. In the past, when "Im not worthy" came up, it would pull me down and I'd be unable to move and cry for hours and hours and hours. It lasted maybe 3-5 minutes. I took a page from Marianne Williamson's and Louise Hay's books and beat the anger out. I took my pillow and slammed it onto my bed until that anger had been spent. Then I began to pace and talk it out.<br />
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My main fear is this: Man-made religion is shit. It lies. It says "You have to do this, this, and this and ONLY if you do it perfectly will you get 'this' in the end." And then they append, "And if you don't get 'this', never worry, you'll be rewarded in the next life." I had this spouted at me my entire childhood. It still slightly pisses me off that people destroy others' spirituality in this manner.<br />
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So, if metaphysics says "if your inner world changes then your outer world HAS to change to match it" and my inner world has been changing for years - drastically for the last three and tremendously over the last 37 days - and my outer world is the exact same it was 5 years ago, then is this just another men-made religion?<br />
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And that bothers me. Bothers me with a huge B!<br />
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So in my talking things out, I recognized that I cannot stop this because I don't want to. I LOVE feeling so good and so positive and so happy and so on top of the world most of the time. But I do need my external world to match my internal one. Because I do not belong here. Not when I mentally live in a much better space.<br />
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Later last night, I went back into meditation and I did not use the guided one. Instead, I did it all mentally and usually during my angel meditation, the angel takes awhile to appear. I had barely gone into it and my angel was not only waiting for me, he wrapped his arms around me. In fact, as I was going into the meditation, I realized the ringing was in my ears again - I hadn't heard it since I began talking with the angels. It symbolizes that they are here and they want to talk to me. And by that ringing, they must have been trying to get through to me but because of the "I'm not worthy" issue, I had blocked everything - all interaction with the divine. It was quite unconscious - more of a protection I've carried since I was a child. But I did reopen. And that's the part I'm happy about. I'm not sticking to old patterns, even when they assert themselves, the new me takes over relatively quickly.<br />
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This morning I woke up to a memory I had pushed down so far I had forgotten it. It happened when I was 22/23. I was living in an apartment at the time with 3 other girls. One of them had a boyfriend who stayed over often. I thought we got along well. Until the day I walked out into the living room and suddenly he grabbed me and slammed me against the wall. For no reason at all. My roommate laughed. The pictures I had on the walls dropped and the glass busted. And I couldn't move or speak. I have no idea what would have happened next if our other roommates hadn't come into the living room. The two of them went back to her bedroom and that's all I remember. I can only assume that memory has come up to be cleared so I will do so. But ugh. What a horrible memory and I can still feel the shock as my body and head slammed into the wall. The fear. The terror. And the inability to defend myself.<br />
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So where do I go from here? I will concentrate on my internal self, but I am also on search for the key to making my outer world match my inner reality. I'm going to keep working on recognizing intuition when it strikes. But I'm not buying into the religious shit.<br />
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I will not trust the phrase "It is coming." I will not trust the "if you just keep with it" and I will not accept "you must have more stuff to clear". Not anymore. Everyone has stuff they need to get rid of. We do not need to be perfect to attain our goals. If we did, nobody would ever do it.<br />
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I am creation. I create my own life. I've seen my reality change in the blink of an eye. And it's more than time that I found the key to making it happen.<br />
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I will work with my angels and guides and I will keep my chakras open and my heart space open. I will continue to learn and focus on the inner me. But I will also find the missing piece so that my outer world fits my inner reality.<br />
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NamasteCynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-81554724923962497502016-06-07T11:49:00.000-07:002016-06-07T11:49:18.282-07:00Day 32 of #40days of meditationThey gave me a rose. It's going to take some time to figure out all the permutations of that sentence. For now, just take it as is. My amazing angels and guides gave me a rose.<br />
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I started out this post and have now deleted most of it as it ended up turning into a rant which I did not want to do - shows me I've still got some anger toward organized religion.<br />
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So I'm going to focus instead on my rose. It's beautiful in its spiritual state. A gorgeous peach color and when it's in full bloom, it is as wide as my lap. And the best part? It's thornless. And the lesson included with that is so intense, so mind-altering, so life changing it is going to take awhile to have it all soak in. I got it last night during my nighttime meditation, but expressing it? Will take some time.<br />
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Namaste<br />
<br />Cynthia (Xen)http://www.blogger.com/profile/09263429338492847386noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3036477902953505015.post-35764273319170709572016-06-05T07:41:00.000-07:002016-06-05T07:41:31.085-07:00Day 30 of #40days of meditationWow! It's day 30. I've been meditating for a full month. That's exciting. And except for a few days in the beginning where I showed some resistance to it, it hasn't once been a chore. It's the most peaceful time of my day.<br />
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The New Moon energy has struck. I can feel it in my muscles, my bones, my aches, pains, and my thoughts and fears.<br />
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I'm about 1% away of finishing <i>A Return to Love</i> and I've come to a couple conclusions. I am looking forward to studying <i>A Course in Miracles</i> because the lessons are about self improvement and because from what I've been told, there is not this overwhelming emphasis on god as an individual. That 'god' is universe or all that is'ness or whatever I term it to be.<br />
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Every teacher is going to take <i>A Course in Miracles</i> and their religious or spiritual beliefs are going to combine with it and become a major focal point. The author of <i>A Return to Love</i> is religious and her beliefs on God are, well, sometimes it feels like she's hitting me over the head with a mallet with them. I've done my best to try and separate the wheat from the chaff, but when she goes on and on and on about God and He and Him and acting as though 'He' is watching us... well it gets too much.<br />
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So I am glad I read it as it gives me a hint of what I'll find in <i>A Course in Miracles</i>. But I don't think I'll read it through her book a second time, which I was planning on doing.<br />
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Today I plan on playing. Like I said, the New Moon energy is intense and I barely got out of bed, not to mention I woke up to a pretty nasty dream with reoccurring thoughts about someone in my past. So I'm going to play to get my thoughts and attention on something fun and happy.<br />
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Have a good day<br />
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