Sometimes it's hard to look on the bright side

After 5 years of working 8-20 hours a day every day on my writing, I'm finally at the point of accepting that "Do what you love and the money will follow" isn't working for me.

I have to believe there's got to be another reason that all my hard work hasn't paid off. I figure, over the 5 year span of time, I made about $5/day. Which comes out to about what? $0.30 an hour?

And I haven't just been working on my writing. I've been working hard on me. I've done so much and changed so much, so why isn't my external world reflecting my internal world?

I'm a writer - it's WHO I am. But since I can't make a living on it, it looks like I'm going to have to go out and get a job - I HATE JOBS. They don't work for me. They're awful, and constrictive, and squash me until I'm a writhing mess on the floor. The last JOB I had made me suicidal.

I'm bummed and feel like crying, but am desperately scrambling to figure out what went…

That moment when... you realize you're on the wrong track

Life is good. And I've felt empowered for awhile now. I've got all the indicators that my goals are in the bag and I need to 'stay the course.'

That's the hard part for me. And probably not for the reason you think.

I have some bad experiences with man-made religion and one of it's tenants is always "no matter what, keep doing what we tell you to do. Even if life throws hell at you, just keep going."

My reaction? An emphatic 'F*ck that."

The differences in religion's look at the concept and the universal look at the concept is both similar and different, but when I'm in that spot, it is difficult to keep on, keeping on.

Emotional wise, I've got it going on. I'm a happy person and love life.

However, when you work on your passion 16-20 hours a day and it feels good and it flows - and while it isn't always easy, it is something I find fulfilling to do - and YET - I'm supposed to keep on, keeping on. I'm supposed to s…

It's time to banish fear

Fear originally was a very good thing.
There’s a mountain falling down. Run!
There’s a saber-tooth tiger coming your way. Run faster than the guy next to you!
Unfortunately, over the centuries and millennia, fear has become something else.
Fear is a tool. It’s a tool of control. The easiest way for someone to control you is to get you to fear something and tell you that they are the only one who can save you from it.
Politicians use it. “If you vote for X, the world will be destroyed. You’d best vote for me because I can protect your interests.” Usually combined with a smarmy smile.
Religious leaders use it. “If you don’t follow our rules and pay us tithing, you’re going to hell. If you don’t obey our god, our way, you’re going to hell.”
Corporations, advertising companies, and doctors use it. “Use our product or nobody will ever want anything to do with you. Follow us on Facebook because only ‘we’ tell the truth. Use our product or you’ll die.”
Fear has become the most powerful t…

What is your relationship with time?

Special Relativity
E=MC2 - Energy = mass x the speed of light squared

Creating My own life

In special relativity (I used to think the way people talked about it that it was called Spatial Relativity), Einstein found that mass is formed by kinetic energy divided by twice the speed of light.

What Einstein may or may not have realized is this wasn't a formula just for science. It's the formula for life.
E (Energy) is the rate at which something vibrates - its V (Vibration)
M (Mass) is the end result of what we wish for G (Goal)
C (Speed of light), which at the time was the fastest speed he could imagine and he squared it, making it infinity - it's T (Time it takes for said goal to arrive)

So E=MC2 can be written as M=E/C2 = the mass is the end result of the energy expunged divided by the time required to create said energy.

Or V=GT2 can be written as G=V/T2 = the end result becomes physically present when the vibration is suitably achieved, divided by the time it takes …

What does an angel really look like?

Every day it seems like I come across a spiritual individual who tells me what an angel looks like. Or a fairy. Or a dragon. Or a unicorn. I listen to their description and then go on with the knowledge that it's a wonderful thing in our giving universe that every single person can see energy beings in a different way.

So what do they look like? Whatever you think they should look like. It's that simple. Energy beings are just that - energy. Energy has no form. It's just light. The human mind, unable to handle something it doesn't understand, does what it can to shape the energy form into something it understands.

It's why so many people describe angels as being pale skinned with golden hair and white fluffy wings - they were raised with that concept so when they 'see' an angel, that is what they see. And don't for one moment think that's wrong. It's not. It's very right because they see what they recognize as a loving angel. And they put a…

Who's Reality are you Buying Into?

Before we are aware that we are the masters of our own universe and that we control our own vibration, we are but a leaf in a storm, being flicked about at its whim. Without the strength to find out own way, we are ripped from our  branch and sent out into the world without anything to hold onto except for the fact we have no control.

In some ways, I think people cling to that concept - after all, it is easier to blame others than to recognize that you are at fault for what comes to you.

The opposite is in fact true - when you recognize just how much of what happens to or comes to you is from you, it gives you a better bargaining chip. Because if something comes your way you don't want, you change the vibration you put out so you get a different response instead.

However, that doesn't mean we don't have knee-jerk reactions. Right now, there are tons of those going on in Washington DC. I keep away from the news because quite frankly, it's sole purpose is to drag the lo…

Dumping Energy Blocks

There are a lot of gurus out there. Tons. Possibly millions. And guess what? They are all probably right. For them. And possibly a few of them have the right path for you to follow.

However, there is something that may be holding you back.

It doesn't matter which of the paths you take. Whether its following Neville Goddard or Abraham-Hicks, the masters of The Secret or the spiritualist down at your local New Age store. If this one thing is holding you back, none of their work will get you where you want to be.

Now, don't screech and fall over. Let me explain.

We're all energy, right? And everything we're talking about deals with energy. So if you have an energy block against whatever it is you're going for and you don't take care of it? You can try and try and try and try and try as much as you can. You can even succeed. However, if you haven't cleared that energy block, your success is likely to turn on its head and leave you wondering what happened.

Case …