This Thought Counts

Good morning! Wow. 25 days. It's zoomed by. When I first started, doing 20 minutes was difficult and I needed a guided meditation to keep me from fidgeting for that amount of time. Now I'm going between some guided and some music because I'm doing much longer meditations. 1 hour can fly by and I just feel amazing when I come out of it. I'm also about to start A Course in Miracles with a friend of mine. I know one of my challenges going into the ACIM course is my resistance to thinking of one god - as an individual life force. To me, the universe, the all that is'ness is a collective intelligence and vibration of all the beings in the universe. And from what I gather, ACIM refers to 'God' being whatever the person imagines 'God' to be. But I've got mind blocks just like everyone else - that's one I will work through because ACIM sounds like it has some amazing lessons. Last night I felt compelled to bring out my crystals.I haven't...

Aftermath of a huge blockage released When I went for my Reiki attunements in 2009, 2011, and 2013, I was warned that the attunements open up energy centers that have blocks in them and when that happens, the energy will flow better and faster. And may wipe me for a few days. And it did. In all three levels, Reiki I, Reiki II, and Reiki Master/Trainer, I would spend the next few days in bed. Just getting up to go to the bathroom would wear me out. It only lasted 2-3 days, but wow. I have the feeling I’m suffering from a similar dilemma now. Yesterday, I was working on clearing some blocks and one of them, which I knew of but had no idea of how big it actually was (nor that it was blocking my energy – I thought it was protective, not destructive), blew up. I’m talking metric tons of horrible, negative emotion. And then I dealt with anger from realizing I’d been carrying that emotion and blockage for over four decades as it originated when I was a child. The permutations of what I...

Whoa. It's been quite a day. So I've been using grounding meditations the last couple days as I decided it was way past time I learned to communicate with the external beings who keep trying to contact me. They've been ringing in my ears for two years - for the first year and a half, I thought some strange things about it. Since the ringing happened often when I was writing Highlander Romances, and stopped the moment I stopped writing them, I figured someone was trying to tell me I shouldn't write those. Don't laugh ;) Every time for weeks when I would work on an HR, within moments the ringing started and the moment I stopped, the noise stopped. So I put all my Highland romances away and stopped writing them entirely. Then the sound came up again while I was doing nothing. And then again when I was doing something different. Then, about 7 months ago, I was going nutso because it started and wouldn't stop. For three days I did not get much sleep because ...

Day 20 of my 40 days of meditation and I've had a few mind blowing moments over the last couple days. davidji said that the thing about meditation is that it quiets your mind and lets you receive inspiration easier when you are not in a meditative state. I can attest to that. I'll also say that I had a tussle with myself on whether or not to write this post. The experiences I've had over the last few days have been intense and affirming. But then doubt came in. "Will they think I'm gloating if I write down what happened?" "Will they tsk and tell me it couldn't have happened?" And then I realized I was letting doubt and fear cloud the amazing things that happened. So, here is a small look into the last few days. 1: A little over a week ago, I saw a few free videos from Dr. Wayne Dyer. In one of them he talked about how we are, at our core, light. Now, I have been widdling down my affirmations to one that I use if I get emotionally out of s...

Day 9. Time goes fast when you're having fun, right? :) So I've switched my meditations. While the guided ones were easiest to do, I knew I wanted to get back to being able to meditate on my own without another person's voice around. So I switched to music I've used in my Reiki practice and Steve Halpern's Chakra meditation music. Both allow me to sink into awareness and yet don't have much to knock me out of the meditative state. I have come across a conundrum though that I will need to figure out. They all say we need to be "in the now". At one time I thought I had it figured out that being 'in the now' was acting from the goal - as in knowing it already happened, so I was acting as such. Then when I started getting back into meditation, both davidji and Dr. Wayne Dyer said that being "in the now" was about being now. Not thinking of the past. Not thinking of the future. Because all we had was now. Of kicking out spare thoughts ...

Hello everyone :) Okay, I'm on day 5 of my 40 days of meditation and I'm starting to notice some interesting things. Such as I am far more aware of how much clutter is in my head at any given time. Is it any wonder I've struggled for so long with getting intuition? My brain's been too clogged up to hear anything. It is like standing in the middle of a screaming crowd of fans and trying to make myself heard above the band and the yelling without a microphone. Plus, there is something very unique to the quietude that is created within the meditation. To have nothing on my mind. Yes, my thoughts zoom in and I pull my mind back to either my breath or to the guided meditation speaker's voice or to the chant if there's one going on. But the fact is, it's like going from a loud room into a huge warehouse where there is complete silence. It's one of those moments where you can't help but notice how odd it is. How loud the silence is. And how infinit...

So, on my third day of meditation. I'm enjoying doing two different guided meditations daily by davidji. The universe even helped out on Saturday by sending a Fly to remind me to be in the now. It pushed me into meditating that day when I'd kind of been putting it off because I had other things to do. It's definitely helping already in a few ways. First, I'm sleeping better and deeper. No more toss, turn, toss, turn. And even if it didn't do all sorts of other good, that would be a reason in and of itself. Second, I'm more conscious of my thoughts - and there are so damned many. But in this, I'm training my egoic brain to stop filling my mind with static. Because that is what 99% of our thoughts are. Pure and utter static. Just words and the feelings they engender that muck up our thoughts and vibration. And with all that static, is it any wonder I had a hard time hearing the universe as often as I would like? I tended to catch the warnings, but was mi...

I've always known meditation was a good thing, but getting into a practice of doing it daily has been difficult. I did it daily for months when I first read Neville Goddard's works and got into manifesting my life full time. But then I got caught up in the 'doing it right.' In several of my groups on Facebook, people were telling that the 'only' way to meditate was their way. I got so confused, I stopped. Guess what? THERE IS NO ONE WAY TO DO IT RIGHT. As long as you meditate - and there are so many ways to choose from - daily, you lower your heart rate, rewrite your brain patterns, shore up your ability to resist disease, and increase your ability to make decisions and hear when the universe talks to you. Plus, it makes you focus on the NOW, which is important to anyone trying to manifest. Pretty strong YES in the column of 'should I meditate?' So I looked into different meditation techniques over the last few days and know I will be focusing on...