Showing posts from September, 2008

Change is Coming! - Being Self-Full

`Hello fellow - BLC'ers

Changes are a'comin. On Oct 1 my new image will be up - yeah, I love the smiley too, but new challenge, new image:)

I may go back to the smiley at some point, but I feel the need for a new one:)

I'm already starting some things for my new challenge. Its a big one for 45 days. But - I know I need this community to get me where I want to be by mid-Nov.

Have you ever sat and looked at yourself in the mirror (metaphorically)? I like what I see, but I need to get beyond this need to control how everything happens in my life. I'm such a control freak! LOL I'm getting better at it, but I am looking forward to the time when I can allow the Universe to help me right off, rather than deciding how things should be done and hitting my head against the wall a few times.

For my new challenge, I automatically started making lists and charts. LOL While some of that is relevant, I need to take a step back, and take a deep breath. While some of the stuff I thought…

What a wonderful morning!

Its been several days, but I have been so busy. I have been adding some things to my vision board and removing others.

Plus - yesterday was my mom's birthday and so we had a full day there:) I made her a cake that morning and then we went to a local fair, and it was quite fun. Last year it was boring, but not this year - and I truly think that had to do with where I am mentally. I had a fantastic time!

Yesterday, a workman came to replace the air cleaner that sits next to the central heater. I didn't think of it at the time, but considering where it sits, it must have displaced a whole bunch of spiders. So, they decided to crawl on me last night. Not a fun way to wake up at 1am. But, hopefully the rest will find their way back under the stairs. If not, they will have extremely short lifespans:)

I am so excited to be attending WOTS next week. There are so many amazing classes plus I am sure I will meet some amazing people. An added bonus is that it is a 4-day vacation. WOO HOO! I …

Day 18

Today is the first chance I have had to sit and think today. I spent 3 hours at my hair dresser this morning - long time, but I love the result - so yay!

Then came shopping and mail. So, now I am going to go and meditate on the wonderful reading Lynn did for me yesterday. I wrote down tons of notes last night about the first thoughts that came to me after reading it all. Now, I need to truly look inside and figure things out.

I have a lot of things to think about, including my current goal. I think there is going to be a major shake-up in my life that is so much for the better.

I'll keep ya posted!

Onward and Upward!~

Day 17 lots to think about

(originally posted Sept 21, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)

I've been struggling with stuff lately and today I got two huge inspirations - one was from commenting back and forth with Spiro. The other has slightly blown me away in its clarity.

Lynn did a reading for me today that has me reeling with its clarity. I need to meditate and think much on it.

Thanks Lynn - that was amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't have much to say, but much to think about - so I am off to try and quiet my mind.

Have a wonderful evening everyone!

Onward and Upward!~

Day 16 - Fantastic Day

I feel fantastic today. Full of joy and empowerment.

Yesterday I looked at the negativity I was feeling, where it came from, and why it was hanging around. I faced a few things I was dealing with and faced the realization that I may need to change my goal somewhat. I have two different ideas and this week will decide between the two. Either way, I am happy that I realized it was where I was going in my goal that was sending me into a bad mood.

I am continuing to write and work on getting In Search of the Drasta in print, rather than just the e-copy. I am torn between two ideas there. I would prefer the one, but it is more expensive. The other would be good, but not great when it comes to book-signings.

But, I feel good and that is the main thing. The weather has broke and it is a nice drizzly day here in the NorthWest.

I hope everyone is having a fantastic weekend!~

Onward and Upward!~

Day 15. More on track

I feel more on track today. Been too muddled for the last week to concentrate.

Today I have tons of things to do.

1. Settle on a teleconference company

2. Start contacting the speakers I sent letters to

3. Finish Designing the website so that I can start building it

4. Write, write, write.....

That should keep me busy.:)

Hope everyone has a fantastic Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Onward and Upward!~

Yesterday was a procrastination day

I didn't particularly notice it yesterday but I completely recognize yesterday as a day of Procrastination! LOL I can feel resistance, and plan to do a major EFT session today.

I found tons of unique ways to do absolutely nothing:) Well, I didn't do nothing, I did work a bit on my novel last night, but I didn't work on my main goal at all. So, today I have several phone calls to make and some website development to do (not my favorite - but I can do it relatively easy). I need to have the site up and running Oct 1 to start registrations.

I woke up at 6am this morning and was surprised at how dark it was. I mean, sure, the light was starting to show, but jeez, its only September. The weather here is about to get extremely nice. Today its 90 (yuck), tomorrow it is 85 (ewww), but by Saturday its supposed to be in the low 70s (better) and by Monday 60s (WOO HOO!) 60s is perfect weather for me. I hope it stays that temp at least through the Central Washington State Fair which sta…

Day 12 - Definitely a nice day

Today was a nice day. I took inventory on my pantry and went and did a Costco run - Always fun - always expensive:)

Summer is battling Fall right now, so we get 48 degrees at night and 95 degree days. Love the nights, looking forward to when the days are in the 60s.

I have been working on my novel today. Tomorrow I will be spending a bit of time on the phone, talking with the companies that I am interested in for hosting the Teleconference series.

The best thing about today? the BBQ! I am a BBQ nut. I have been working at the grill for almost 3 years. I have both a charcoal and gas grill; which I use depending on what I am cooking. The one thing I don't have is a dedicated smoker - will get that after my move to Portland:) I grill everything from ribs to steaks, Smoke tons of meats, and BBQ amazing pork shoulder, pork loin, and beef. My favorite thing to grill is Pineapple! It does something to the chemical makeup of the fruit and it practically melts in your mouth! yummmmmmmmmmmmmmm…

Day 11 - 25% of the 2nd challenge down - WOW

Time moves so fast:)

I didn't realize that 11 days had already come and gone - I have gotten so much done, and yet still have so much to do.

I have my first speaker. I have finished sending off all the letters to potential speakers.

I have the cover design finished for In Search of the Drasta. I am just waiting to hear back from Create Space before I send it in. I am also waiting for my ISBN. I chose to purchase my own rather than take the free one they offered. That way, when I choose to either go with a different publisher or self-publish, I can keep the same ISBN.

I wrote a little in my new novel yesterday. Hope to write more today, but am feeling writer's block at the moment, so . . . . . . .

Onward and Upward!~

Day 10

This has been a nice day.

I purposefully took time away from my challenge today - for some rest & relaxation. I exercised and tried to just day dream, but instead my mind went over my new novel. LOL I really do need to get a recording device so when these things hit me I can record them right away. It would be faster than trying to write with my hen scratches.

Tomorrow, I send out the rest of the speaker invites. I've narrowed down the companies I will be using for the teleconference to 3. There is a company out there that allows it for free, but only up to 96 people. Way too few for what I am planning:)

Besides novel "thinking" I also set about shortening several pairs of pants. At 5'0", it is rare that I can find clothes I don't have to shorten. So, I usually buy the pants and let them sit, but this time I couldn't do that. WOTS (Writers of the Sound) conference is coming up soon and I plan on taking my new clothes - the ones that aren't baggy - w…

Day 9

(originally posted Sept 13, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)
Well,. I spoke today with one of the speakers I want for my Teleconference series. I think he has great information to help people who are working to make their lives better.

It was the first time I was speaking about the conference out loud to a potential speaker, He did fine, I think I sounded ok - I coulda' sounded better, I will work on that:)

Came across some resistance today as I can see my goal going forward. So, I am tap, tap, tapping away at it.

I also completed the cover for the print version of In Search of the Drasta. Now I just have to wait until I can talk to one of the publication service people to make sure I have everything in the correct format before i send it all in.

Short blog today. But that works:)

Onward and Upward !~

Day 8 - Resistance came and was conquered!

Hello everyone:)

Well for the first time in weeks, resistance came up like crazy today! It all started out this morning when something happened that made me feel betrayed by someone I knew. Well, "knew" isn't the correct term, more like acquainted with.

Anyway, I am so happy with how I handled it. In the past, it would have sent me into a depression and probably would have killed my goals. (no probably about it - it would have) But this time, I looked at it and thought "No, I am not going to let old patterns ruin my happiness." So, I did my 10-10 list and felt much better, though there was still some residual annoyance. So, I set about doing a full round of EFT. It took about 3 minutes to rid myself of the negative feelings, and another one to truly feel positive and happy again.

I can't tell you how wonderful that is! From someone who used to let this kind of stuff eat at me and eat at me until I was down in the dumps, I now have ways to overcome them! WOO HO…

Day 7 - Had an immediate LOA attraction today!

OK - this has never happened before - or I just never noticed it.

I have been wanting to move away from plastic bottles, get a water purifying system and go that route. Only thing was, I didn't know what kind of bottle I was going to replace the plastic ones with.

This morning I made a conscious thought that I wanted a water bottle that would be clean, would be easy to clean, and be good for the environment. WHAM! Mail came - and in it were two, and only two items. Both were catalogs - one from and the other from LL Bean, Both included a new stainless steel, food grade water bottle! I am thrilled! I have now ordered two of the bottles from Isabella and am very excited for them to get here.

Day 6 - 2nd challenge

Got quite a bit done this morning!

I wrote my overview for the 6-part series, This morning I realized that what I was going for wasn't a "teleseminar" in the way they are advertised online. Thus I have decided to call it a Teleconference. It will be just like going to a conference to hear amazing people speak about their experiences with making a better life, except

1. you don't have to leave your home
2. It costs a LOT less.

And yet, you will still be able to hear their experiences and pick up wonderful ideas you can put into your own lives.

I also created a draft of the letters I will be sending out to the speakers I would really like to have as part of my series. And I have set aside dates for each conference.

I have a full list of speakers I will be contacting, but I also would like to have several people from the BLC who would like to speak about their experiences for one of the Conference sessions.

I would type more, but I suddenly have a puppy asleep on my chest. …


(Originally posted Sept 9,2008 Boundless Living Challenge)
At this moment, there are 6,146 members of this challenge - that is SO amazing! Last week I noticed there were around 5900 and I think its great we already have 200 more! Welcome Welcome!!!!

I think the BLC has taken on a life of its own in a way. Bob Doyle opened the door, And we have truly explored ourselves in an amazing light.

(ewww, did I just write that? Sounds way too sappy for me;))

Anyway, This new 45 days is so exciting and I am surprised at the leaps and bounds I have made already!

To paraphrase my favorite Borg:

"May each of you reach all of your goals, except for one. So that you always have something to shoot for"

I love Vermont!

(Originally posted Sept 9, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)
I have to say - I love the state of Vermont. I have never been there, nor have i ever met anyone from there, but I think Vermont is one amazing state.

For several years now there has been a movement to Free Vermont. They want to secede from the Union. I say any state that has such amazing chutzpah, has my vote. I love it - If it weren't for the fact they get dang cold and the fact they are on the other side of the US - I would want to move there!

I love people that have their own voice - probably the same reason I love Portland, OR, the greenest city in the US, and 3rd greenest in the world!

Day 5 - Slow but steady

(originally posted Sept 9, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)

Well, its Tuesday, day 5, and I don't feel as though I have done much yet today. I know its only 1pm, but usually I have a tremendous amount done by now.

I did my exercise and 10-10- list. I also found all sorts of MP3 cds I have of different LOA talks.

I got to the point yesterday in my new novel where I had to start transcribing it into the computer. I was looking back over what I had wrote and realized that some of my writing was so hideous that I could barely tell what it said - LOL. The faster I write to keep up with my thoughts, the worse it gets. Plus, when it is completely into my external drive, I will start writing there, rather than on paper. It will go quicker as I won't be doing double duty, but I do miss pen to paper:)

I made a list yesterday of 30+ individuals I will be contacting for my 6-week "Have Your Best Life" series. I am hoping to get 8-10 positive responses. That way, I have a few backups…

Day 4 - What a wonderful day!

OK, Day 4 of Challenge #2.

I am so on fire. Yesterday I wrote for 3 hours. The time went so fast. The only reason I ended up stopping was that my wrists were hurting:) I got my calendar (and suitably enough, its a Dragon calendar!). I started writing down importand dates and when I need ot have things completed. It helped me to realize that Oct 16th, which was going to be the first day of my 6-part series, is only 2 days after the full moon. Considering how the Full Moon affects me, I don't think that is a good idea. SO, I need to either pre-record the 1st one and play it that night, OR move the date. I will have to think on that.

Today has been wonderful so far! I got up and immediately wrote and sent my 10-10 list to Betsy, my 10-10 list bud:) I went to the gym for the first time in a week. It felt good to get back on the treadmill. I was only able to go 8 minutes before my back started to twinge, but its getting better - that is the point:)

After lunch, I am going to do my researc…

Day 3 of my 2nd Challenge

Well, I feel so good today. I completed my 10-10 list this morning but still need to do my couple rounds of EFT (definitely a part of my daily routine).

I am going to be hunting for a calendar today so that I can write down all of my important dates and "What's due" so that I can stay on track. So much to so - so excited for the next 6 weeks!

I have been thinking allot about the 6-week series that is my main goal for this challenge and have come up with some amazing ideas. Tomorrow I will probably be spending 4-5 hours on total research and planning. Today, I will be putting the things in place so I can just GO FORWARD!

Yesterday I didn't get any writing done. I thought about the story line and it played itself over and over again in my brain. I need to get an audio recorder and have it with me so that when these things hit me, I can just record them right then!

This afternoon, I have set aside time to write. (Which I need to do on purpose every day).

I have had so much f…

My new Vision Board

Hello fellow-Challengers:)

I made a vision board for the first challenge that I have laying next to my bed so I can look at it a lot. For this challenge, I decided it was time for me to actually post a video - GASP*!

So, I created this online vision board - I plan on viewing it twice a day to keep the visuals strong in my brain.

Lets goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

(The vision board was too large to post here. I have uploaded it at the Boundless Living Challenge.

New day, new challenge, new goals

Sept 5th - wow, so much has happened and I am so pumped up for the next 45 days.

This is the first day of my 2nd 45-day Revolving Boundless Living Challenge (Sept 5- Oct 20)

I am carrying over the goal from my 1st challenge (to bring in over $1,000/day. But it is a sub-goal that will go well with some of my other items.

I have two large goals for the next 45 days. I will be posting both here and on the Boundless Living Challenge website. Probably more here at first due to the fact that the BLC is going through a hectic "end-of-challenge" thing at the moment.

My Goals for the next 45 days:

A new day, a new challenge . . .

Well, today is Sept 5th - and I feel fantastic!

Today is the first day of my new 45-day challenge. For those who are reading this for the first time, I was part of a 45-day Boundless Living Challenge that went from July 21-Sept 4. The amount of change that happened to me is AMAZING! Look at my post Day 45 - Final post for 1st 45-day challenge .

I end up copying the posts from the BLC to here, as I haven't gotten around to posting to two blogs yet - but I hope to change that this time!

I have 2 goals for this challenge. I will be posting my official goals this evening.

I am so excited that I was able to get my novel completed and up online before the end of the first challenge. You can read the first chapter by going to My WebSite.

If you have ever wanted to reach a goal, that you thought was unatainable. Or to change your life in an amazing way - the 45 day challenge is for you!

You can join at : Boundless Living Challenge

Note that at this time there are a lot of posts about the end of …

Day 45 - Final post for 1st 45-day challenge

(Originally posted Sept 3, 3008 Boundless Living Challenge)
Well, its Day 45.

45 days ago, I would have thought this would take awhile, but suddenly here it is. This time has sped by so fast - and so much has happened!

It took me a few days to figure out a goal, and without a concrete one to pick, I chose making $1,000/day.

I would have to say that this challenge was split into 3 - 2 week sections for me. I have tried my whole life to have a better one, but it kept avoiding me. When I learned about the Law of Attraction, it made total sense to me. I could see how I had attracted all those bad experiences and all the negativity. How many times had I said "Well, I don't know what I want, but I do know what I don't want." Well, DUH!

Sept 1

(Originally posted Sept 1, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)
Its been a nice day today. I slow-cooked a pork shoulder (mmmmmmm Pulled Pork Sandwiches), and have worked on my 10-10 list.

I notice I am having to keep my eye on the end of this challenge, as my mind is already straying onto my next challenge, starting Sept 5. While I have not got to my "making $1000/day" yet, though it is coming, I feel that in many ways I have received even greater gifts.

Ahh, the wonder of life!

. . . and wonderful it is!

August 31

(Originally posted Aug 31, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)
Wow, its already the 31st of August - Time does fly.
8 months of the year have gone bye-bye
42 days of the 45 day challenge has as well.

And yet, so much has happened! This has been an amazing time in my life, as I am sure it has in many others as well.

Who could have guessed that so much could happen in such a short amount of time?

People meeting their goals
People making MAJOR changes in their lives
People ridding themselves of resitance

This is amazing!

As I sit here on a lazy Sunday morning, it all seems to wonderful. Fall weather has arrived with 70-degree days and 40-degree nights. (not that my dog is too happy about it - LOL the poor lil guy is freezing! So I wrap him up in blankets all the time)

I am so excited about what the next 45 days will bring. I am going to keep up what I am doing. On Thursday (Sept 4) I am going to create a new MAJOR goal to work toward. Looking at how my life has changed in the last 42 days, if I could …

Day 39 - WOW this is going so fast!

(Originally posted Aug 29, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)
I can't believe its day 39! wow - that is so amazing! I definitely see this challenge in waves (I will post more of that on my final blog post on the 4th:).

It has been so amazing and so eye-opening. And I am SO excited that I have my book ready! I am offering the first chapter for free for anyone - so you can get a taste of my writing style. Feel free to sign up for it! (you can read more on My Page.

Free chapter

My Book!

(Originally posted Aug 29, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)
OK -I am so excited. With the umph I received from this challenge, I finished my first Sci-Fi / Fantasy novel titled In Search of the Drasta. I am so excited to have it finished. Over the last couple weeks I have been researching vanity and self-publishing options. After much back-and-forth motion, I have decided to offer my book in e-format only at this time. Maybe after my second or third book comes out, I will put this one in paper form, but for now, I am very excited to offer it for sale in PDF format!

I don't know about all of you, but I hate to buy a book from an author I have never heard of without either hearing reviews or knowing their writing style. So, I have decided to give everyone a chance to read a chapter free! Then, if they like what they read, they can purchase it.

Before I go mainstream with this, I would like to offer it to members of The Boundless Living Challenge first. You can sign up for the first cha…

Day - 35; releasing the first chapter soon!

(Originally posted on Aug 25, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)
Wow - Day 35. Can't believe there is only 10 days left in the challenge:)

I have been super busy lately working on a plan. I have decided to give away the first chapter of my book. Then, if people like it, they can buy the E-book via a link at the end of the chapter. Also, it will allow me to gain a list of people who want to read my stuff. I plan to update them with information on new releases, book signings (when I have them), as well as send them more of my writings.

I am feeling like I am on the right track with this one. (OK, I almost wrote "write track", but didn't know if that would get laughs, boos, or messages about typos! LOL:)

I hope to have all the pieces in place by either the end of today or by tomorrow. I will be posting a link to get the first chapter for anyone who is interested here:) I would love to hear some feedback on it:)

Day 32 - I think

Originally posted Aug 22, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)

If Sept 4 is Day 45, I assume today must be day 32.
Anyway, quick post. I am worn out. The last few days have been good, but I am kind of at the end of my rope. I am puppy sitting. He is a 10-month old and even though he only weighs 6 pounds, he is a lot to take care of. Combined with him are the other two dogs and all three of them are now testing my patience!

The pup loves to bark - and his bark is so loud and shrill - could kill your eardrums. He won't shut up! Nor will he calm down. And he refuses to learn the word No. I feel bad about putting him in his crate too much, but the lil brat is driving me nuts! I haven't gotten ANYTHING done that I was planning to do this week. I haven't been able to write, I haven't been able to work on my business. I keep exploding at him and the others when they won't listen. Now, I am so close to tears I am about to lose it.

I don't want to be putting this kind of emotio…

Day - I've stopped counting!

(Originally posted on Aug 19, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)
I haven't been here for the last few days - I have been taking it a little easier. I am still focused on my goal, but am going about things with a less-harried attitude.

All-in-all the last couple of days have been quite nice. I have some nice tools to help me go forward and I am really liking the way I feel.

I hope everyone else is doing well in their life!

Day 28 -ugh its early

(Originally posted Aug 16, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)
Well, its day 28 - I haven't blogged in 3 days, but then again, there hasn't been anything to report. Right now its 7:02 am on a Saturday morning and I have been up most of the night with nightmares. I read Twilight yesterday by Shannon Meyers and I kept being attacked by Vampires all night! LOL Good book, but EEK! (I have a very low tolerance for Horror)

I'm keeping up my 10-10 list and doing a couple EFT sessions a day. Right now I am just trying to get through the Full Moon cycle. I am one of those that is severely affected by the cycles of the moon, and the Full Moon is the worst!

If I remember correctly, there was a partial moon eclipse today and someone had pointed out that the eclipse tends to bring about change. I am very open to whatever change is coming. Change is good.

Day 25 - A Writing We Will Go

(Originally posted Aug 13, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)
Well, yesterday's de-cluttering brought to me a magazine I wanted to find. I knew I had it, I just wasn't sure where it was,

It listed a whole bunch of Agent's who will accept new authors and so I have been going through their websites today.

Long story short - I have signed up for a writer's workshop here in Washington that is in about 6 weeks. It has a tremendous amount of great information and I am excited to go. Anything I can use to make me a better author and to put me in contact with the industry - I can work with:)

Put one foot in front of the other, and soon you'll be walking across the flo-o-or!

Day 24 - Good day

(Originally posted Aug 12, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)
Well, today has been a good day. I realized I needed to be a little more balanced in what I was doing. I was giving all of my attention to my goal and to getting rid of resistance, and I think it was making me off center.

So, I exercised, read, finished de-cluttering my room (as well as cleaned it), and this evening I am watching You Can Heal Your Life again. Watching the movie reminds me of why I purchased Louise Hay's book in June and how far I have come. This is remarkable ~ that I have made so many changes and made so many leaps in just 2 months.

I am going to pick up my affirmations that I did from June through July again. They were what started me off and really got me going. I am going to keep up my EFT and 10-10 list. Besides that, I am going to just work on my goals and see where they take me, hopefully with a little more balance.

I look forward to a time when I can feel this calm on a more constant basis. Yes, being…

Day 23 - Emotionless

(Originally posted Aug 11, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)
Well, this morning I realized what was happening to me. It is a behavior I created as a child so that outside sources wouldn't hurt me (which of course, didn't really work, I just didn't feel the emotion at the time). Problem is - they came back.

I was trying to do my 10-10 list and it took almost 15 minutes to come up with 3 things I was grateful for. While I was writing the 3rd one, I realized I was not feeling any emotion to what I was writing. That was when it hit me; that I was being emotionless, and this was not the state I wanted to be in. To tap out negative emotions, you are supposed to feel them. If you can't feel, hows that gonna work?, I thought.

So, I decided to tap on having no emotion, which led to tapping on why I had no emotion, which led to what having no emotion was doing to me, which led to the fact that it was taking me down a path I no longer needed to go, which led me to the thought that if…

Resistance to EFT?

(Originally posted Aug 10, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)
Well, There is still some deep resistance I am not getting rid of. It is causing major resistance to doing my EFT and my 10-10 list. Once I do it, I feel so much better. I tap on whatever thoughts come up, and it seems to nullify whatever is causing the problem at the moment.

But all day today, whenever I would think "I need to tap now" I would get side-tracked or just think "Oh in a few minutes" then forget about it.

Tonight I tapped on heading backward, on losing the lead I was getting, on hitting one bump in the road and receding, and it has helped, but I need to find out what big thing is feeding this resistance.

Maybe I will try tapping on getting side-tracked, it seems to be happening allot today and see what comes up..

Day 22 - Listless

(Originally posted Aug 10, 2008 Boundless Living Challenge)
Today I am feeling pretty listless. While there are some physical factors going on, I think my brain is tired :)

I spent yesterday morning doing avid research on the publisher who wants to publish my book, and I don't like what I have found. They sound like a bad company to be dealing with. Lots of postings of "doesn't pay royalties" and "prices retail too high, with only a 5% difference between wholesale/retail". Plus, I went up to - they don't carry PA's books. Borders doesn't carry PA's books. So, I don't think I am going to be signing that contract.

I am thankful this all came as I am going to get my book published, but I am going to really work on how. I don't like the idea of a vanity publisher as it is really hard to get your book into bookstores that way (no returns policy). I am considering self-publishing, but will need the $10,000 to get 5000 copies printe…