This Thought Counts

When I started this blog in August 2008, I had no idea where my journey would take me. I only knew it had started the winter before with the watching of What the Bleep Do We Know? And reading The Secret 2 months later. I could see how I attracted what I didn’t want. When the Boundless Living Challenge (went defunct in 2013) came up – 45 days to a goal – I jumped in. If you’ve read my first 2-3 months of blog posts, you’ll see how much that changed me. I mean, I went from mostly negative with a small percentage of blah to being positive at least 50% of the time. That’s tremendous! While I haven’t blogged as much as I did then, I have kept up my journey. I’ve had amazing moments. I’ve had disheartened moments. And I’ve let you travel it along with me because I thought people needed to see that they were okay, that having ups and downs was normal. The journey that started Winter 2008 ended in Summer 2013. In late Summer/early Fall 2013, I started a new journey – a higher journey e...

This year, I decided to challenge myself and release 1 novel per month. I've done so. This summer I've seen a few things and with some of the knowledge my guides have brought me, my life is changing. For instance, I won't be releasing anything after the trilogy I'm re-releasing on Sept 14th. I need the time to write, get caught up, and work on the biggest change I'm focused on. (Plus, releasing one book a month is insane. I couldn't focus on marketing any of my books because I was too busy getting the next book ready for release. I became so burnt out that I can barely write, let alone anything else.) Neville Goddard spoke oft about living in the present. Living in the Now. Not in the future, not in the past, because the only time we truly have is Now. It wasn't until recently that I recognized and admitted to my fear of living in said "Now". Not that I didn't want to - and consciously I didn't realize what I was doing. Or perhaps, I ...

Wow. Day 40. So much has happened in the last 40 days, I am amazed. So much growth in a period of 40 days just because I wanted to get back into the habit of meditating. First off, I will continue daily to meditate because of all the amazing things that have occurred. I found love. I re-opened my chakras. I became love. I saw a miracle happen right in front of my eyes - my 2nd reality shift I was aware of. I recognized some of my limiting beliefs and have cast them off. I've met and interacted with several angels and guides.  I'm recognizing intuition. I have a much better relationship with the divine. I was given a rose by my guides. Last night I was shown a beautiful vision from my guides. And so many more I cannot think of in this moment - but that was only in 40 days. Let me repeat - all those amazing things occurred since I started my 40 days of daily meditating practice. I changed the kinds of meditation I used and the times as I found what worked for me ...

Well, Day 36 was interesting. All day long I felt uneasy and malcontent. Late afternoon, I realized I hadn't felt the tingling in my third eye all day. So I tried to meditate, using my grounding+chakra balancing guided meditation, but it wasn't working. So I did a few other things and went back to do it again. I still had difficulty. I could feel the slight tingle but it wasn't nearly as strong as I've gotten used to over the last week or so. I guess my being uneasy & overwrought all day exploded mid-talk with my angel. See, yesterday morning I was beginning to read a book by Dr. Joe Dispenza. And he made a comment about how we make the internal changes so that our external world changes and that there's no other reason to do it. And that kept pecking at me all day. I kept thinking - I feel better. I have an open heart. I'm happier. I'm more joyful. And yet.... Where are my big goals? And suddenly a huge wash of shame and guilt and "I'm no...

They gave me a rose. It's going to take some time to figure out all the permutations of that sentence. For now, just take it as is. My amazing angels and guides gave me a rose. I started out this post and have now deleted most of it as it ended up turning into a rant which I did not want to do - shows me I've still got some anger toward organized religion. So I'm going to focus instead on my rose. It's beautiful in its spiritual state. A gorgeous peach color and when it's in full bloom, it is as wide as my lap. And the best part? It's thornless. And the lesson included with that is so intense, so mind-altering, so life changing it is going to take awhile to have it all soak in. I got it last night during my nighttime meditation, but expressing it? Will take some time. Namaste

Well, I can definitely tell you that meditation brings about all sorts of amazing changes. It brought a long-lost friend back into my life. It brought about my focus on I Am Love. It has reawakened my chakras (most of them) and aligned them. And it's brought about a calmer, less New Moon addled person. So last night, I decided since I now know what it feels like to have my Ajna chakra open, that while meditating I would check on my other chakras and see how open they are. I was pleasantly surprised and thrilled to realize that of the 7 main chakras, 5 are open and active and 1 is partially open. The one that is not open and feels blank when I work with it is the Anahata, the heart chakra. This doesn't surprise me at all. As a child, to protect myelf from hurt, I shut it down - obviously not consciously, but the result is the same. My entire adult life I've struggled with even the concept of "love" at times. In my twenties, I thought love was the world's wo...

Ajna or the Third-Eye Chakra has opened Last night as I was meditating before I went to sleep, a strange feeling came in the middle of my forehead. It kind of tingled, kind of itched. And I knew exactly what it was as I had felt it once before but rejected it at the time as annoying. When I realized later on what it was, I could have kicked myself. I've been doing a lot of chakra opening work as my grounding exercises when I prepare to speak to my angels - it's also a wonderfully calming meditation. But as I felt these feelings I felt such warmth, knowing that once again my 3rd eye is open. It's a wonderful feeling as one of the things I've been asking for is to get in better touch with my intuition and guess what the Third-eye is for? Ajna is involved with wisdom, intellect, clairvoyance, acting on ideas, insight, understanding, intuitive reasoning - can you see why this is amazing? When the third-eye is out of alignment, it can cause headaches, eyestrain,...

So much has changed since I started my #40days of meditation. Not only have I felt more peace, I've also found things within that I needed to get rid of, old patterns or blocks that needed to be routed. But I've also begun to meet and have discourse with my angels. I'll admit, I'm still in so much awe of the love in the space when I talk to them that most everything drops out of my head when I do and I forget anything I mean to ask. But not always. For instance, I asked for an angel who could help me with a problem I'm having and a new one I hadn't met yet came forth and is now helping me. Of course, that brings me to where I am now... in search of colored sharpies. See, I've been putting off something for weeks because I have major resistance to it. (Those fiction authors among you will know what I'm talking about when I mention the words: Full Manuscript Rewrite.) And today I asked my angels to help me change my attitude and thought patterns on pro...

Good morning! Wow. 25 days. It's zoomed by. When I first started, doing 20 minutes was difficult and I needed a guided meditation to keep me from fidgeting for that amount of time. Now I'm going between some guided and some music because I'm doing much longer meditations. 1 hour can fly by and I just feel amazing when I come out of it. I'm also about to start A Course in Miracles with a friend of mine. I know one of my challenges going into the ACIM course is my resistance to thinking of one god - as an individual life force. To me, the universe, the all that is'ness is a collective intelligence and vibration of all the beings in the universe. And from what I gather, ACIM refers to 'God' being whatever the person imagines 'God' to be. But I've got mind blocks just like everyone else - that's one I will work through because ACIM sounds like it has some amazing lessons. Last night I felt compelled to bring out my crystals.I haven't...

Aftermath of a huge blockage released When I went for my Reiki attunements in 2009, 2011, and 2013, I was warned that the attunements open up energy centers that have blocks in them and when that happens, the energy will flow better and faster. And may wipe me for a few days. And it did. In all three levels, Reiki I, Reiki II, and Reiki Master/Trainer, I would spend the next few days in bed. Just getting up to go to the bathroom would wear me out. It only lasted 2-3 days, but wow. I have the feeling I’m suffering from a similar dilemma now. Yesterday, I was working on clearing some blocks and one of them, which I knew of but had no idea of how big it actually was (nor that it was blocking my energy – I thought it was protective, not destructive), blew up. I’m talking metric tons of horrible, negative emotion. And then I dealt with anger from realizing I’d been carrying that emotion and blockage for over four decades as it originated when I was a child. The permutations of what I...

Day 20 of my 40 days of meditation and I've had a few mind blowing moments over the last couple days. davidji said that the thing about meditation is that it quiets your mind and lets you receive inspiration easier when you are not in a meditative state. I can attest to that. I'll also say that I had a tussle with myself on whether or not to write this post. The experiences I've had over the last few days have been intense and affirming. But then doubt came in. "Will they think I'm gloating if I write down what happened?" "Will they tsk and tell me it couldn't have happened?" And then I realized I was letting doubt and fear cloud the amazing things that happened. So, here is a small look into the last few days. 1: A little over a week ago, I saw a few free videos from Dr. Wayne Dyer. In one of them he talked about how we are, at our core, light. Now, I have been widdling down my affirmations to one that I use if I get emotionally out of s...

Day 9. Time goes fast when you're having fun, right? :) So I've switched my meditations. While the guided ones were easiest to do, I knew I wanted to get back to being able to meditate on my own without another person's voice around. So I switched to music I've used in my Reiki practice and Steve Halpern's Chakra meditation music. Both allow me to sink into awareness and yet don't have much to knock me out of the meditative state. I have come across a conundrum though that I will need to figure out. They all say we need to be "in the now". At one time I thought I had it figured out that being 'in the now' was acting from the goal - as in knowing it already happened, so I was acting as such. Then when I started getting back into meditation, both davidji and Dr. Wayne Dyer said that being "in the now" was about being now. Not thinking of the past. Not thinking of the future. Because all we had was now. Of kicking out spare thoughts ...

Hello everyone :) Okay, I'm on day 5 of my 40 days of meditation and I'm starting to notice some interesting things. Such as I am far more aware of how much clutter is in my head at any given time. Is it any wonder I've struggled for so long with getting intuition? My brain's been too clogged up to hear anything. It is like standing in the middle of a screaming crowd of fans and trying to make myself heard above the band and the yelling without a microphone. Plus, there is something very unique to the quietude that is created within the meditation. To have nothing on my mind. Yes, my thoughts zoom in and I pull my mind back to either my breath or to the guided meditation speaker's voice or to the chant if there's one going on. But the fact is, it's like going from a loud room into a huge warehouse where there is complete silence. It's one of those moments where you can't help but notice how odd it is. How loud the silence is. And how infinit...

So, on my third day of meditation. I'm enjoying doing two different guided meditations daily by davidji. The universe even helped out on Saturday by sending a Fly to remind me to be in the now. It pushed me into meditating that day when I'd kind of been putting it off because I had other things to do. It's definitely helping already in a few ways. First, I'm sleeping better and deeper. No more toss, turn, toss, turn. And even if it didn't do all sorts of other good, that would be a reason in and of itself. Second, I'm more conscious of my thoughts - and there are so damned many. But in this, I'm training my egoic brain to stop filling my mind with static. Because that is what 99% of our thoughts are. Pure and utter static. Just words and the feelings they engender that muck up our thoughts and vibration. And with all that static, is it any wonder I had a hard time hearing the universe as often as I would like? I tended to catch the warnings, but was mi...

I've always known meditation was a good thing, but getting into a practice of doing it daily has been difficult. I did it daily for months when I first read Neville Goddard's works and got into manifesting my life full time. But then I got caught up in the 'doing it right.' In several of my groups on Facebook, people were telling that the 'only' way to meditate was their way. I got so confused, I stopped. Guess what? THERE IS NO ONE WAY TO DO IT RIGHT. As long as you meditate - and there are so many ways to choose from - daily, you lower your heart rate, rewrite your brain patterns, shore up your ability to resist disease, and increase your ability to make decisions and hear when the universe talks to you. Plus, it makes you focus on the NOW, which is important to anyone trying to manifest. Pretty strong YES in the column of 'should I meditate?' So I looked into different meditation techniques over the last few days and know I will be focusing on...

If you've dealt with metaphysics at all, you've probably heard the phrase "be in the now". Now, considering the fact that they also say to live 'in the end', I will admit, I get confused as to the concept. I figured out six months ago that, at the time, it meant thinking in a completely different way to the way I was thinking before, and as always happens in the study of anything, the deeper you go, the more our knowledge of said definitions change. I've been thinking a lot about being in the now today and I am thinking, at my current level of knowledge, that there is a depth there that I am ready to grasp. As such, I am focused in July to being 'in the now', to take 15 minutes a day and just be. No thinking of other things, no imagining the end, no going over plot lines in my head (which is my biggest mind filler). Just take those fifteen minutes to be aware. Aware of what? Good question. I know there is so much we don't 'see' ...

Stress is a killer. It kills bodies, dreams, thought… Everyone has a way to de-stress their mind and body. I suggest you take thirty minutes a day to do so. Exercise Take a walk in nature Find people to laugh with (notice I said with, not about – no gossipy talk here or making fun of others) Meditate Draw Do what helps you to de-stress and do it daily. You Deserve it!

I can see it. You've been working so hard on yourself. Keeping up the positive affirmations. Meditating frequently. Reminding yourself that you must think from 'the end'. And now you are as frazzled as a pancake. Because you want your dreams to be true now and so you work so hard at it. Only, this should not feel like work. Ever. When it feels like work, you are doing something wrong. More than likely? Just trying too hard. Yes, yes, I know you want your dreams. I want them for you! But do me a favor? Give yourself a break! You need to give your mind and heart a break. Walk away for a moment. Laugh. Go ride a roller coaster. Walk along the beach. Stop thinking. Just for a few minutes. Breathe. Relax. Now, enjoy yourself. Your dreams are waiting. They can wait another hour. If you feel frantic, that will just keep them further at bay~! Remember, imagine your dream until it has ta...

Okay, if you've been reading my blog, you know that spiders are a clear sign to me that I have taken a wrong path or that I need to do something to change my direction. They are also my reality booster . I trust these little suckers, whereas all my life i've hated them. Now, I treasure them for the little sign posts that they are. For about a month, I haven't seen hair nor hide of a spidey. Knowing that meant I was on the right track, I've been swimming along. It feels good to know you are going in the direction you want to go. Then, starting two days ago, I had a bit of a scare. Physical output of former thoughts came into my sphere and freaked me out. I meditated and it went away. For a short period of time. But each day the tension and extreme emotion come back and I keep meditating. Meditation makes it go away, so does immersing myself into my strongest Imagination, the one I know is my virtual reality. Just last night I was telling a friend of mine that I ha...

I am big on meditation. Its good for stress relief and centers me. So, whenever I see a link for a free meditation, I am game to give it a go. I downloaded a meditation from David and Kristin Morelli, intuitives, and creators of the Everything is Energy radio program. They just started a 40 Days & 40 Nights program,  which this meditation was from.  Once downloaded and loaded onto my MP3 player, I got comfortable and hit play. I wish I hadn't.