This Thought Counts

This morning I was at the gym reading a book on Astrology for Writers - basically how to do story and character creation using astrology archetypes as your guide. Just before I left, something hit me and it took a few minutes to percolate before I realized what was tugging at my brain. So I had to create an image to encapsulate it. Essentially, everyone tells us "Don't look at the sun or you'll go blind." But there are more ways to go blind than just by physical sight. To go spiritually blind or blind to one's own good nature is far worse in my opinion. So if you take the Sun as the hero aspect - intrinsically good, strong, heroic, always on the side of right, etc, and you stare at such an individual constantly, you'll always focus and intensify certain parts of who they are: Wow, look at how built he is. She's so smart. He can do anything. She won the local marathon. Those kinds of thoughts are made up by our egos. And we start to compare th...

I don't know about you, but in the past whenever I've heard someone like Neville Goddard say things like "I do not dream of having sex with my wife" - as in when he's working on a goal that isn't one of the things he did (and the one time I heard him say it, well, he sounded disgusted by the concept) - well, I figured he was being a stick in the mud. As a woman who is proud to say "I enjoy sex and all the accouterments that go along with it" I tended to just go "Fine. You can be a stick in the mud." So in some of my scenes I've imagined with my man, erotic scenes have been a part of them. But guess what I just learned? The electromagnetic signature put off by the brain in lust mode is earth bound and much, MUCH lower than I want it to be for my dreams to be made real. LIGHT GOES ON! Which means when I indulged in erotic dreams about my man, they did not rise high enough to put them in the realm of where I needed to be. Now, I...

Wow. Day 40. So much has happened in the last 40 days, I am amazed. So much growth in a period of 40 days just because I wanted to get back into the habit of meditating. First off, I will continue daily to meditate because of all the amazing things that have occurred. I found love. I re-opened my chakras. I became love. I saw a miracle happen right in front of my eyes - my 2nd reality shift I was aware of. I recognized some of my limiting beliefs and have cast them off. I've met and interacted with several angels and guides.  I'm recognizing intuition. I have a much better relationship with the divine. I was given a rose by my guides. Last night I was shown a beautiful vision from my guides. And so many more I cannot think of in this moment - but that was only in 40 days. Let me repeat - all those amazing things occurred since I started my 40 days of daily meditating practice. I changed the kinds of meditation I used and the times as I found what worked for me ...

Well, Day 36 was interesting. All day long I felt uneasy and malcontent. Late afternoon, I realized I hadn't felt the tingling in my third eye all day. So I tried to meditate, using my grounding+chakra balancing guided meditation, but it wasn't working. So I did a few other things and went back to do it again. I still had difficulty. I could feel the slight tingle but it wasn't nearly as strong as I've gotten used to over the last week or so. I guess my being uneasy & overwrought all day exploded mid-talk with my angel. See, yesterday morning I was beginning to read a book by Dr. Joe Dispenza. And he made a comment about how we make the internal changes so that our external world changes and that there's no other reason to do it. And that kept pecking at me all day. I kept thinking - I feel better. I have an open heart. I'm happier. I'm more joyful. And yet.... Where are my big goals? And suddenly a huge wash of shame and guilt and "I'm no...

They gave me a rose. It's going to take some time to figure out all the permutations of that sentence. For now, just take it as is. My amazing angels and guides gave me a rose. I started out this post and have now deleted most of it as it ended up turning into a rant which I did not want to do - shows me I've still got some anger toward organized religion. So I'm going to focus instead on my rose. It's beautiful in its spiritual state. A gorgeous peach color and when it's in full bloom, it is as wide as my lap. And the best part? It's thornless. And the lesson included with that is so intense, so mind-altering, so life changing it is going to take awhile to have it all soak in. I got it last night during my nighttime meditation, but expressing it? Will take some time. Namaste

Wow! It's day 30. I've been meditating for a full month. That's exciting. And except for a few days in the beginning where I showed some resistance to it, it hasn't once been a chore. It's the most peaceful time of my day. The New Moon energy has struck. I can feel it in my muscles, my bones, my aches, pains, and my thoughts and fears. I'm about 1% away of finishing A Return to Love and I've come to a couple conclusions. I am looking forward to studying A Course in Miracles because the lessons are about self improvement and because from what I've been told, there is not this overwhelming emphasis on god as an individual. That 'god' is universe or all that is'ness or whatever I term it to be. Every teacher is going to take A Course in Miracles and their religious or spiritual beliefs are going to combine with it and become a major focal point. The author of A Return to Love is religious and her beliefs on God are, well, sometimes it ...

Well, I can definitely tell you that meditation brings about all sorts of amazing changes. It brought a long-lost friend back into my life. It brought about my focus on I Am Love. It has reawakened my chakras (most of them) and aligned them. And it's brought about a calmer, less New Moon addled person. So last night, I decided since I now know what it feels like to have my Ajna chakra open, that while meditating I would check on my other chakras and see how open they are. I was pleasantly surprised and thrilled to realize that of the 7 main chakras, 5 are open and active and 1 is partially open. The one that is not open and feels blank when I work with it is the Anahata, the heart chakra. This doesn't surprise me at all. As a child, to protect myelf from hurt, I shut it down - obviously not consciously, but the result is the same. My entire adult life I've struggled with even the concept of "love" at times. In my twenties, I thought love was the world's wo...

Ajna or the Third-Eye Chakra has opened Last night as I was meditating before I went to sleep, a strange feeling came in the middle of my forehead. It kind of tingled, kind of itched. And I knew exactly what it was as I had felt it once before but rejected it at the time as annoying. When I realized later on what it was, I could have kicked myself. I've been doing a lot of chakra opening work as my grounding exercises when I prepare to speak to my angels - it's also a wonderfully calming meditation. But as I felt these feelings I felt such warmth, knowing that once again my 3rd eye is open. It's a wonderful feeling as one of the things I've been asking for is to get in better touch with my intuition and guess what the Third-eye is for? Ajna is involved with wisdom, intellect, clairvoyance, acting on ideas, insight, understanding, intuitive reasoning - can you see why this is amazing? When the third-eye is out of alignment, it can cause headaches, eyestrain,...

So much has changed since I started my #40days of meditation. Not only have I felt more peace, I've also found things within that I needed to get rid of, old patterns or blocks that needed to be routed. But I've also begun to meet and have discourse with my angels. I'll admit, I'm still in so much awe of the love in the space when I talk to them that most everything drops out of my head when I do and I forget anything I mean to ask. But not always. For instance, I asked for an angel who could help me with a problem I'm having and a new one I hadn't met yet came forth and is now helping me. Of course, that brings me to where I am now... in search of colored sharpies. See, I've been putting off something for weeks because I have major resistance to it. (Those fiction authors among you will know what I'm talking about when I mention the words: Full Manuscript Rewrite.) And today I asked my angels to help me change my attitude and thought patterns on pro...